When I came home something really big happened. That big thing has made me really happy but also really irresponsible. I have started to stay out later spend and spend more time with the people I really care about. Last night might have been disappointing but after a whole week of it, I am not surprised that we needed to stop and recuperate. I ( Read more... )

I am walking on air.

I am afriad to be broken and lied to. I am afraid your interest is fading. I don't want to be left with a heart full of love having to look into eyes that rebuke my attentions. I don't want to be replaced, I don't want to be strung a long. As the time goes by I begin to crumble at my fears. Should I stop giving you my attentions so I can save ( Read more... )

I have never felt this bad about a class. But this class, it makes me squirm and shrivel, like a worm taken out from the ground after a rainy day. I'm alone and lost and I am ashamed to ask for help because I know that laugh at shock that I am doing that bad. It probably would give you pleasure that I am failing and going to never get into anywhere ( Read more... )

I have been selfish, being busy, and forgetting my friends. Refusing to forgive for the evident flaws that we all posess in some sort of way. I need to pay attention to everyone again instead of closing in, but I just don't think I am ready to open up again if people are just going to try to beat me down. With opening up there is always that chance ( Read more... )

I discovered how badly I needed to study for the SAT's when I got a problem wrong that was so encredibly easy that I learned how to solve it in the 6th grade...

But I have all of the silence of time ready for today! *score* tenor and sop solos!!!!

I have no more blonde in my hair anymore and I feel great. I should probably just start bust out a move. I guess I am having sextet practice on thursday so everyone can be here.

Please don't hate life. I don't think I could bear another loss...

The funeral was beautiful. Almost as beautiful as you. And I will miss you red face and laughter. I'm sorry that I couldn't look as you one last time, it was too much to accept that I won't be seeing you.

I'll be seeing you, in all the familiar places though.

I hate cold meds they knock you out for 3 hours and then you can't fall asleep. Why did I insist on sleeping at 9 at night. I am really stupid for ever doing such a thing. But then to think I was so stoned out of my mind the my bedroom ceiling was warped and nothing looked like a straight line and I kind couldn't walk straight. I don't think I am ( Read more... )