well to all of my adoring fans, i am still alive. just have been really lazy about writing in my journal (obviously) but also lazy about everything else in my life. i had a great birthday thanks to kyle jeffrey bewsey and erich daniel bain. jacksonville will never be the same :) well that is all i need to say.

well seth is here. its good. erich and kyle will be here in a couple hours. its going to be a lot of good in my sad sad life. i did get a library card today. that was a highlight. im a fucking dork.

well its finally here. im 21. i went and bought my first legal beer (emphasis on the legal) and it was good. apart from my spat with cory it was a good experience. why dont i have the ability to make other people understand? oh well. just another couple of days until the boys come down. i cant wait.

I AM FUCKING TIRED OF THIS SHIT. I DONT WANT TO LAY AROUND THE FUCKING HOUSE ANYMORE. BUT CAN I DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. NO NOT REALLY. FUCK IT ALL.

i was up until about 5 am as usual last night, expecting to sleep until the early afternoon as usual. but no, cory needs to go to school and i have to take him. i come back planning to sleep and i cannot fall asleep. so i eat and go to see about some jobs. and finally get to sleep around 3 pm. im asleep until almost 10. so i dont know if i ( Read more... )

ok so it is only midnight but i just woke up from a "nap". i had a really fucked up dream and i want to write what i remember of it down. ok so i was taking a nap in my new house in boiling springs with justin and kyle. except that it was a really really nice house something us poor college students could definitely not afford. i woke up and ( Read more... )

as the subject shows i have had another day of doing jack shit. i woke up to the phone with the erich's crackling voice coming over the line. i talked to him for a bit. then i listened to my entire emo/punk playlist on windows media player (2 and a half hours) while playing a card game called tut's tomb from which i am taking a break. ( Read more... )

well another uneventful, boring day. i talked to erich for a while and then kyle called and i talked to him for a bit. then i mowed half the front yard until it stopped raining. dad got a job in dawsonville--i dont know if he is going to take it. it is a hell of a lot closer to school than here. only about three hours away instead of 7. so ( Read more... )

another day of doing a bunch of nothing. i turned in my applications that i picked up yesterday. i still need to find a job. but i want to hear back on these before i think about applying elsewhere. went to corys church for a graduation dinner. it was good, seeing as how i had not eaten today. now i am back home. i heard from lori today ( Read more... )

i just saw the new matrix movie. unlike the first it was not awe-inspiring. however it was much more a personal movie. trying to make you feel like even neo, "the one", was helpless to break out of the control of the machines. i suggest that everyone go see it. but be prepared it is not good like the first one was good. its good like i dont ( Read more... )