i just re-read some old journal entries. oops. i was a sad sap. a lonely sap, i suppose you could say. but just for the record, i am a woman who has finally learned the value of being single and in love with herself, her friends, and her whole entire life she's created for herself, by herself. well, maybe with the help of some of the loved ( Read more... )

when i first set out for college and ventured to colorado, i was going to triple major in four years from an elite institute and would probably already have a masters. instead i ended up with a degree i don't want from a crappy college. sometimes i get really pissed off at life for getting in the way. (but tell me not to be mad, because it's ( Read more... )

you can't make someone feel the way you want them to feel about you.

i don't know why i let myself feel this way.

also,

i think i'm coming to terms with the fact that i might just end up single for the rest of my life because i'm never going to find anyone i like enough. i want someone to go to shows with and all the guys here that do that just seem like scenester douchebags.

in greenville, i once had this group of friends who got together for "bible study" where it wasn't so much the study of the bible we did but more so talking about community and what it means to have community, and it's the only time i've ever had a community like that and sometimes i wish i could go back and still be close to all of those people-- ( Read more... )

i feel like a thirty-something single woman.

i just got home from the office at almost 9pm, greeted my cat, ordered chinese food (for delivery, mind you), and turned on the tivo. on the couch. by myself.

wow.

...and should be doing other things but too bad ( Read more... )

sunday (15): blueberries, strawberries, blackberries. nectarine. spinach balls with marinara sauce. brown rice with peas, carrots, onions, and grilled tofu. water ( Read more... )

i'm learning a lot. generally, in life.

k that's all.