THE WISDOM'S IN THE TREES, NOT THE GLASS WINDOWS

[eleglam]

This song is Amazing. Jack Johnson: Breakdown. Everyone should download/buy it.. and listen to it. I LOVE IT.

I've figured out my goal in this nonsense. It's to eventually vomit up my stomach.. and then I won't have to eat or purge anymore. That would be nice. If only it would happen.

I don't have much else to say. I drink too much. Binge

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[scarlight]

This makes me worry.

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[pickupmypieces]

haha, I guess vomiting up your stomach could be nice, except then you'd die. Which probably... isn't very good.
I binge drink WAY too much too. It's horrible. I'm not as bad at home for the summer, but it's much worse when I'm up at school. One day, I was SO sick that I literally threw up bile and dry heaved and threw up absolutely everything I tried to eat/drink ... I was puking about every 30 minutes ALL day.... and I never felt so awful in all of my life. But I seriously lost six pounds, and that somehow made it okay.
bleh.
hang in there, I can definitely relate.
xx

[eleglam]

GAH! I think I throw up bile everytime.. is it green? That's disgusting, I can't believe I just asked that. lol But.. it's true. Sigh.. SEE! It's a motivator for me.. once I see that I've lost those five pouunds.. suddenly being that sick wasn't so bad as to make me never want to drink again. Quite the opposite, actually. I hate that every 30 minutes, though. I usually end up on my bathroom floor, puking, falling asleep, waking up, puking, falling asleep, waking up.. and I'm in the bathroom for about 5 hours doing this. It's a strange cycle....

[pickupmypieces]

My bile is like... BRIGHT yellow. It's pretty weird. And gross. The thing about the cycle though, is that... college makes it seem so normal, haha. Annd sometimes I really do think it's worth it to lose weight. As long as I try not to think about the fact that I'll gain halfof it back if I drink one glass of water :-/