so for the past few hours i have sat here and read my old entries and comments and such. it reminds me of what i have come to realize over the past few years. it wasn't as bad as you thought it was then. there's been a lot of things that have happened since high school, and here i thought i had a boring life. i don't really think however i should' ( Read more... )

once i thought nothing could hurt me. that no matter what i'd be okay. but now i have faced what life can really throw at you. i have looked myself in the eyes and realized that i am not invincible. i am only human. i can be broken. but i am not alone. instead of looking behind me i have to rememeber to turn around before the other car slams into ( Read more... )

if by any chance you are watching vh1 someday and you see someone who looks just like me singing with a kid who looks just like my friend justin in a ford explorer...guess what, it is me...and if i said anything you find really offensive, i apologise now...

worst day ever.

i have never felt so many things at one time...or so much. i feel stupid, i feel hurt, i feel alone, i feel pain, i feel anger, i feel so much...and i know it's my fault but why can't i fix this? i spend all the time fixing everyone elses lives and they end up happy and i can't fix my own and i can't be happy...this just doesn't seem right to me. ( Read more... )

without you, without you everything falls apart, without you, it's not as much fun to pick up the pieces

everyone needs to just gang up and kill me...okay well we got the first part down now why can't anyone just finsh it?

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i feel bad...

but he makes me so happy <3

yeah okay, it happened...after 5 years, there is no more "jeff and jackie"...yeah i know it's weird, it's weird to me too, especially today...first valentines day in 6 years we aren't together...and somehow i have realize that theres someone else to spend today with...but i know where my mind will be wondering...but sometimes, things change ( Read more... )

i have spent the last week sick as fuck...i think i'm done now please ( Read more... )