Well, things are starting to turn around. Smoky cravings are certainly starting to diminish, which is all I really ever needed. I knew it was my head that was driving me bonkers and now that it's let up I can start to focus on other things, rather that obsessing all damn day long ( Read more... )

I'm getting drunk again.. It's typically what happens when Justin comes around, or when I get lonely at night. There's things to occupy myself with, but that whole needing-to-not-think-about-things pops up all too often. Ughandblah, it's hard to explain how I feel. Words really elude me when I get to drinking. And maybe that's the frustrating part ( Read more... )

Holy crap, I feel amazing. I mean, I'm exhausted and worn out and completely done with getting my ass kicked, but damn it's gonna be worth it. Working out today felt so good without cigarettes. It's still tough, but I can feel a difference, and I needed that little boost to help me out. Little victories like this is what's going to keep me going ( Read more... )

Day 1, no cigarettes.
Day 3, no meds.

Ultimate suckature.

It's good and gravy, but it reminds me how easy it is to be careless and negligent when it comes to myself, and how it's even easier not to want to change. But, I'm fed up with other things controlling my life. I'm taking back my power.

So, people really piss me off. Maybe it's because I'm a straightforward person, and I possibly expect everyone else to be the same. In essence, if you have a question, or even a statement, just tell me. Don't pussyfoot around shit. Cause it's annoying and needless and overall stupid, and I don't have the patience for those types of things. Just say ( Read more... )

Ack! Why do electronics hate me so much? So, I killed my wireless internet adapter. Easy fix, just bought a new one. Well, now the desktop is completely on strike. The damn thing won't even turn on. And I didn't do anything mean at all! I probably looked at it wrong and it decided to die. So now I'm stuck with borrowing laptops whenever I can. So, ( Read more... )

So, I can't sleep, and probably won't be able to for quite some time. Because I'm impatient. Well, not even that. Spontaneous sounds better. I pierced my tragus (left ear) and then got an industrial (right ear). On the same day. And, see, I'm a side-sleeper. And that doesn't mesh when you have a painful piercing in each ear. Thus here I am, trying ( Read more... )

I think civilized life is driving me insane. I just spent at least an hour sifting through Old Rag pictures and testaments...and I'd kill to go back there. Even though I'm way out of shape and a smoker, I still want to test my mettle against it once more. I'm thinking of saying fuck the planning, I'm just going to drive out there on my next day off ( Read more... )

DAMN SKIPPY!!!!!!!!! I got chosen to test out The Wrath of the Lich King Beta. So, uh, when you don't hear from me for a week or two, you know what I'm doing.

Baby kitties cuddled in my lap, nice warm cup of tea...it's nice when things fall in to place and can't get much better ( Read more... )