Surprisingly, things have been looking up ( Read more... )

I don't know how else to say this but...my cousin's dead. Last night, car accident. She was sixteen, only sixteen. I ... I feel so mixed up right now. I can't understand why it had to be Gretchen, of all people. I don't even know why I'm writing any of this right now. I can't stand this.

Not sure if I really have the heart to write, but I suppose I should get some things out. First - depressed. Alan has two days left here and I'm thinking he wants to spend that with his friends. I don't mean to sound resentful, but he's so different when he's around them. And yes, I'll be big and admit that I'm jealous, because I've never known ( Read more... )

Well, I've finally been compelled to update. Why? I can't think of any reason other than Alan. I finally went to Syndee's this weekend and, even though we slept most of the weekend, it was absolutely wonderful. I've missed her a hell of a lot more than I've realized. As per usual we talked about Alan every time we smoked a cigarette, which was ( Read more... )

Eh, figured it was time for an update, even though the last thing I feel like doing is talking (or, rather, typing). Just sleep, sleep, sleep for Nic. Really, truly, I'm getting my ass kicked. Eighteen credits is simply not cutting it. And all this family crap is driving me up the wall. I just don't have the time for any of it ( Read more... )

What a day. This has been the best of them in a long, long time ( Read more... )

Guess what guess what guess what?!? I got another letter from Alan! Eee! Really, I didn't realize how much I depend on his letters to keep me going. I don't want to tell him that for fear it'll make him feel obligated to write, which he's not at all. It just gets harder as the days go by and his letters are such a boost for me. I miss the silly ( Read more... )

So, overall, I'm not too impressed with this college thing ( Read more... )

Leave at the break of dawn tomorrow morning. Yes, I've already thrown up. Anticipation, not nerves ( Read more... )

So, I'm finally back on here. Not much has been going on, besides packing. Switched some of my courses around; English died and has been replaced with anthropology. I also moved up my math course (and, thankfully, to another professor) and scooched geology up a day. So now on Friday's I only have astronomy from 9 30 to 12 20. Not bad at all, and I' ( Read more... )