ok, i'm at a loss. i don't want to have to keep count9ing calories, because then i become obsessed and then crash and burn. i can't be trusted to just eat smaller portions of things, because i'm a pig. i can't stick to things like SB diet, because i love variety and don't eat meat, limiting my options. i've tried the whole ana thing, and that just ( Read more... )

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today:

-food: 2/2-i'm messed up on adderall, so i haven't had much of an appetite all day.
-water: 0/2
-exercise: 1/2-went to work, but didn't make the effort to go to the gym. to much homework.
-post: 2/2
-challenge: 2/2-wore my new jeans today and tried to look decent in general.

7/10

12/?/47

went shopping today...i got a pair of jeans, a skirt, and like 5 basic t-shirts/tanks. they all fit, but i cannot wear any of the tops yb themselves-it's gross! i've got that belly thing where people can see the indent of where my belly button is, and the shirt is TAUGHT across my middle. i HAVE to lose weight by the 27th of april if i want to wear ( Read more... )

Yesterday:

food: 0/2
water: 0/2
exercise: 2/2
post: 0/2
challenge: 2/2

total: 4/10 9/2/40

blah blah blah.haven't eaten today and it's 12. it's the adderall. my stomach's rumbling, but i just have no appetite whatsoever.i'm so stressed.two more papers to write by midnight. if i can. if i do. i doubt it.i don't want to go to work. blah. i want to sleep.i hope i did well on that paper. i really do.and i can't believe i'm failing math. i ( Read more... )

Yesterday:

food: 0/2 (stress)
water: 0/2 (blah)
exercise: 0/2
post: 0/2
challenge: 0/2

17/0/36

how cool am i?
god dammit. not very.
my classes end on tuesday, so once that's over with, i'll be STRESS-FREE!!!!
ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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binge, binge, binge...

cereal, coffee, pop tarts, chocolate, chips, sandwiches, oatmeal, yogurt..........

i'm such a fat bitch.
i hate this stress-induced eating.
fuck.