I'm happy. So incredibly sick gonna throw up anxious stoked in love with every tomorrow. Even the bad ones. Even the lonely ones. The minutes all just make me happier to watch them tick by while I inhale and exhale slowly, alone eating cardboard pizza, becomming a part of the slush on the streets outside. I'm here, and I get to watch the seconds ( Read more... )

"The drugs don't work. They just make you worse, but I know I'll see your face again."

Grandpa died yesterday right after the inauguration.

I had a dream the plane crashed.
It was an hour before it was supposed to take off, but I walked right past the woman at the gate and she just nodded me along only half-disapproving. I don't think she even took my ticket. I walked straight to the back, seat 21A. There was tons of leg room, and the girl who came and sat down next to me acted like my ( Read more... )

The semester's officially over for me in 10 days. I can't wait. Between now and then I've got a crapload of stuff to do for class, but eh, I'll get through it. Always do. That's what caffeine's for.
I'm really excited about 2009. It's the first year of the rest of my life. (Haha, I'm such a fucking geek) But really, I mean it. I'm starting ballet, ( Read more... )

"Even when I'm a mess I still put on a vest with an "S" on my chest. Oh yes, I'm a superwoman."
-Alicia Keys

And on a totally unrelated note, I have high hopes for 2009.

In the last week a huge portion of the people I love most came to visit me. It turned my entire life on it's ass and threw me completely off-balance, leaving me to believe that the life I've cultivated here isn't usually filled with people I love. I'm not really sure what to make of that.
Forgive me, I've been smiling constantly all week to better ( Read more... )

1, 2, 3, 4. Who's punk? What's the score?

I am terrified that Sarah Palin could one day be president.

I love you so much that even if it meant giving up on my soul mate, my one true love in this universe, I would marry you and settle down in a little house by the road just so you wouldn't be dying alone.

It was one of those excursions in the first month when I had both a license and a car, and my parents entrusted me to come and go as I pleased with each respectively. Going anywhere by myself at my own discretion was still an adventure, the streets around my house were still like roller coaster tracks. I'd chosen to hit up the local Wal*Mart; not ( Read more... )