you know that shit is fucked up when you stop giving it your all because when you do, it gets appropriated and someone turns around and still asks for more. there are spaces in univeristy where i cannot be who i used to be, who i am, the passion i am because it gets sucked dry. and when i call it out, i get those looks. i am transformed into an ( Read more... )

this is sorta what i felt like when i could put in my name on the university database.
and what mexico was like, 'passing' for me. not someone else.
and playing futbol with kids on basketball courts.
and coffee dregs in chiapas even if i don't drink it that much.

learn yourself
about
atenco
acteal
oaxaca
our use of ethanol
petrochina
police states
and eeuu

word.

oh and ps, if you drink coffee, where does it come from?

check her out.

mexico tomorra.

word.

the 'hawk is back ( Read more... )

i am so distracted. can you tell?
i have two papers to write for this week
and one exam and more for the week after and i cannot focus
for anything...
except her.

(damn grad students).

will the analysis ever end?

what happens when you have a poetry slam about masculinity, violence and social justice and the stage is predominately male, hetero and white?

things everyone should check out ( Read more... )

...when the wind blows i can feel you/through the weather...
word.
played by carlos santana.

these disparities in these spaces
make my life, their life
hier life
into a self-effacing parody
and the only way to
make it better
is if i do all the work
myself
and you step back
and support me
without pinching my spine.
(acca)

word.

i am writing a bit again. yay.
i am learning self-boundaries.
i am reading.
i am cooking dumplings. yay.
i am eating strawberry-rhubarb jam and learning the leaves are poisonous.
i am being.

word.