I really hate to be in recovery. I know i asked myself, and my mom, doctor and other people made me, but i really hate to gain! My lowest weight was like 101 lbs, and now its like 114 lbs. I have to gain more and more. I will still be there in therapy for like 6 months, so i really hope i wont gain to much! They watch me eat like at least 3 times a ( Read more... )

Its already a very long time ago since in wrote here. I am doing ok i think. I gained a few lbs and i hate it, but i t was just on time, otherwise my doctor had sented me to a clinic. I really dont want that cause this is my last year at school. I want to do exam. I started therapy, and i think it can help me with loving myself more. We are also ( Read more... )

Had my birthday yesterday. wasn't as bad as i thought it would be.. i eat more than normal, but not to much.
right now i am 48 kg. So i am kind off happy. Still dont like my legs, but hope i will some day!
xxx

its just weird. I feel i am loosing control. Every day i have to eat cause they are watching me. I know its my own fault, cause i told my parents and said i want to get better. But i hate it. There is no therapy yet, so i cant stop myself... Sometimes i wish i could eat everything without thinking, but i cant. But the stupid thing is, i am hungry ( Read more... )

I started my period today! My back an stomach are hurting so much right now. In the morning i ate a cracker and alittle bit of yoghurt, and after that i went for a two hour walk. After that my stomach was hurting like hell.. my legs were weak... so i ate a tosti. Liked that, but i was fat ( Read more... )

I woke up at 8.30 am. To early for me, cause i wanted to sleep til 11.00. Just watched a little bit of tv, and eat at 12.30. 1 cracker, and a little bit of yoghurt. 13.00 shopping with my mom. She gave me new clothes for my birthday next week! She was really sweet, but i had to eat a little. Just 1 sandwich. After that, cleaned my room, and eat ( Read more... )

I found out how it worked, so here is my journal. Try to write a lot about my days. Hope it will work for me...