ramblings...

[eli_]

What makes life suck for some people and not suck for others. I have observed how some people can be happy and upbeat no matter what; shinning so brightly that one simply wants to punch them in the face at times (especially those who are this way in the morning

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[sea_sensu_si]

Speaking as one who used to be a member of the incredibly happy-upbeat-particularly-in-the-morning-people, I myself used to have an incredible joy at waking up and greeting the world; I wanted the whole world to be happy as well and not to feel any unpleasantness. And I felt, despite any unpleasantness I suffered at the hands of individuals, that the best way to accomplish this was to present an incredably joyous air. And I trully did feel this way, particularly because I was so adept at detachement of any reality.

However, others may not have the same motivations, and they perhaps may trully trully just feel a desire to always be exuberant.

[eli_]

I do not not know. I am not vicious to those who are exuberant, I just don't take in their energy all that well. I am fairly 2-D, no one speaks about how exciting or uplifting I am, I just do my thing, go to work, go to school when it is in session, and so forth. I am pretty quiet, so I guess thats why I feel so cut off at times. It just seems that some have this gift at communication, and they get all the attention, and it does not seem to make sense why.

Really, I'm feeling down because I have been single for so long, the long drought since I started dating people (been about two years now) and I really miss that whole relationship thing. Plus I find no solice anymore in religion, seeing as I am totally agnostic. Oh well, I am rambling.