Friends only,
I'm locking majority of my posts not because I want to conceal things I think/feel/do from everyone. I've grown to become pickier and fussier as to who I divulge myself to - especially when it comes to depressing recounts and personal news. You're welcome to add me if you are interested in what I have to say and offer (i.e. my posts ( Read more... )

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I'm awake now. I know you're awake too ( Read more... )

Maybe I adapted to be more taciturn and sparing a long time ago, when someone told me that what I was feeling wasn't valid. Sensitive, you face the struggle of rationalizing that you were wrong. There are too many things you think you cannot say, because you think it would be inappropriate or that your emotions were just too big; They would fill ( Read more... )

I have discovered songs and pictures and stories that awaken me, that plucks the strings of my soul beautifully and without skipping a beat. In intricate, dark and nebulous corridors and rapid twining passages, lyrics images words composed with heat haze dust and the colour Red. Written with smoke with ash with danger. With despondence, rebellion. ( Read more... )

Lately, ive been listening to the same lyrics over again, rereading the same tattered books over again, dreaming of the same things over again. I’m done with temporary patches that seem to break over and over; I’m sick of useless words that pass through your ears like water slipping through my cupped hands. I’m full of excuses, I’m full of ( Read more... )

"Do you know yourself ( Read more... )

I hate feeling like this. It's like when you're little, and you get separated from your parents. There's nothing but extreme panic and overwhelming fear. You have no control, but you keep looking and looking and hoping and hoping, but you can't find them, and you don't know what to do... and you're all alone.

I'm suddenly really, really sad about nothing in particular. I just am not satisfied with the way things are but what's worse is that I feel so completely helpless to change them. People change, kids grow up, pets die, bad grades happen, people get sick, loneliness is inevitable and we all get let down, usually at the most inopportune moment. I ( Read more... )