Today I went and sat by the lake, watching clouds roll across its surface, feeling the sun warm the top of my head the slightest bit, and I realized that the only darkness in my life is in my own head. My mind is a darkened house, no lights on inside, and all I can do is go from room to room in the myriad of rooms. I have nothing more than a candle ( Read more... )

Christmas wasn't that bad this year. I haven't tried to kill myself in a month... two? So I made out pretty well.

In other news, it's boring as staring at a kitten shoved into a wine bottle here. Anybody wanna do anything? ANYTHING? Leave me a note. Or call me. IM me. Something.

Bill? You there? I haven't heard from you in forever.

I said I'd do it, so I am ( Read more... )

I heard a rumor that they're going to auction off elect somebody else for VP, just to give everyone a fair go. So I'm putting my name out there again.

If I lose this time, fucking shit-tin Jesus, I'm gonna be cross.

I hear there's an opening for Vice President. What happens with that?

I'm also writing a vampire story. Dorky, I know, but anybody wanna read a draft of the first chapter?

The site started going nuts on me, but here's what I got from George's quiz:

Which isn't shabby. Johnny can take advantage any time.

Can you get so numb it kills you?

I'm wondering increasingly what the point is. Doctor Keebler talked to me more seriously today than at any other time, pretty much. He thinks I'm actually... Well, it seems that I haven't been making quite the progress he'd hoped ( Read more... )

Well, today was crap. I went to first period, even though in retrospect I probably shouldn't have, and then I skipped English because I had that with Bill, who, coincidentally, I got locked on the roof with. I think we worked some stuff out; we can both go to English, at least. Weird people at this school, I'll say that. Anyway, I went to the Nurse ( Read more... )

I'm home now, for anyone who cares. They thought I would try and kill myself again Friday, but I didn't even show any signs, apparently, so they decided it was all right to send me home early. The downside, though, is that 1) I'm staying in the living room where Dad and Sandra can more easily keep an eye on me, and 2) It looks like I'll be seeing ( Read more... )