Today I basked in ecstasy. I watched everything come together. I watched everything come together before falling apart in the fall. Realized I am not stuck in reverse...just headed straightforward onto it all...rapidly ( Read more... )

She has despised me for so long. And I may have been one of the last to see her father alive.

I am sorry. More than you could ever, ever know.

Rest in peace.

I hereby declare that I have decided to go to UC Santa Cruz and not UC Santa Barbara or others. At the present moment, 98% positive.

This feels right. Difficult, but right.

Here's to the beginning of the rest, '07.

:)

I didn't know either of them too well ( Read more... )

Well...

I just got into Sonoma State with Honors.

Actually it was a few hours ago.

Funny...one of my top two down. I guess one to go...

ahhhhhhhhhh

:D + :I + :(   ???

This week I watched myself. I literally sat, outside of my mind and body (at least, temporarily), and watched myself.

I watched as I failed to comprehend the past, slowly shrugged it off, and continued drearily.

I watched myself doubt abilities, friendships, relationships; ultimately, life.

Once you're at the point of such "anagnorisis", " ( Read more... )

Diagnose me, doctor, do I exhibit the symptoms of Senioritis? Where goes the line between apathy and suppression? Take your dreams and hold them steady as time passes over you.

Swing low, sweet chariot, from your high. Remember the last time?
I hereby believe that I fear regret.

Doubts Even Here.
Those steps which seem to take a lifetime
When eyes ( Read more... )

So, did anyone else manage to have an awkward first day of senior year? (or any year for that matter ( Read more... )

I have to take women's choir as independent study or else I can't take choir at all...and that means no Carnegie...so can someone please give me wagner's email by chance? I keep trying to see him and yet he never seems to be around.....
much appreciated.
<3

So. I really cannot comprehend how it took me two years to realize that one person is holding me back in life. I never understood the magnitude of that holding back.

But today, I lean towards a brighter future. I let go, and surrender to ambitions. It is done...and I feel unexplainably good.

Thank you for moments...but especially, thank you for pain ( Read more... )