UGH!

[elizabethrae86]

I was supposed to go over Robert's because he wanted to make me dinner. My dad wanted to make me dinner too, because he felt bad about how I've been eating, and the money problems and everything, and so I said ok because I have been turning my dad down so much lately, and telling him things and then not doing them because stuff keeps coming up and

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[nancydrew44035]

big damn baby (in Butt-Head's voice)

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[anonymous]

The point is for me to come visit you for five minutes is worth crossing the country. For you to visit me always feels like too much... Just like you buying things or food or ANYTHING always feels weird... Because I never feel worth it. I'm well passed the "you deserve better... go get him" phase... (I'm growing quick you know) And this is where I am. You love me sooo much honey and I will never understand why... Plain and simple... But at times like this when I make you mad, and you love me anyway, I'm learning fast not to care whether I'm worth it or not to me. Hopefully, one day I can not feel so worthless... It comes from a lifetime (minus preadolescence) of; not rejection, but not even being acknowledged by the opposite sex. I do love you so much... Please just NEVER give up on me. Because you are all I could have ever wanted, you are soooo amazing and loving and special to me. And I need you more than air or food or water and certainly more than my own wants or desires.