why do i always write when im supposed to be doing something else. this weather is getting to me.i get headaches and feel restless. last night i went to ciaos and got into a stupid fight with j. i want to prioritize my friends for one night a week and she feels excluded. complicated . not sure how to fix these dynamics. there small occurances..but ( Read more... )

new things are starting. tonight is my first session of nightwood theatres program. im excited and nervous about it. they send out an email with the overview and at the end , it says that we must bring writing every week to show. i stared at this line for awhile cause the thought of producing some kind of writing material each week sends my spine ( Read more... )

Oh Canada ( Read more... )

just came back from a jewish anti chrsitmas party. been feeling down and trying to fight the winter blues. i dont like myself around popele the recently. i feel snappy and cold. maybe its just how i feel now. been working in the freezing cold at the time of year where everyone suddenly wants to volunteer at street help. i have nothing against ( Read more... )

you asked me to write to you and here i am , feeling overwhelmed. feeling a rumble beneath my skin. feeling words that i want to hand to you on a glass plate. words that are trying to climb the ladder of me. words that i want to dip in honey. words i want to peel to the core. coming out to my grandma has felt really painful so far. been ( Read more... )

dear M ( Read more... )

Take all the complexities. All the contradictions of life and politics. Take all the madness beneath the cracks of the cement. Squeeze them in a van and that’s where I work ( Read more... )

We walked until our legs hurt/we walked until I almost asked a stranger to massage my knees on the cement of college street/Babette wanted to go into winners’ at college and Yonge/walking aimlessly through the aile’s like a bored boyfriend/mid-way through the shoe aisle I suddenly got a stab gut reaction that almost brought me to my knee’s/ what ( Read more... )

right now im listning to the be good tanyas. my knees hurt from a hard core sweat like you've never sweated before workout at boxing. i was the woman at boxing today and it was an interesting strange feeling. im glad i worked out..but punching the bag is starting to bore me ..and the last time this happened i ended breaking my own boundary of ( Read more... )

Dear therezin-what does it mean to be human ( Read more... )