a weird day today. its been really hard lately to leave the comfort of this house.. where i can pace the floors and soak myself in my own world for hours without many disruptions. ive been a lazy tourist lately and i know i will regret it. today i walked the dog, cleaned babettes room, read more jeanette winterson, brought my photos to the shop ( Read more... )

its 3am and i cant sleep. smocking cigarettes and pacing this relaxed house. my mind is everywhere and nowhere ( Read more... )

yesterday was my one year anniversarry of my million dollar charges being dropped ( Read more... )

dear joey ( Read more... )

im in rome. at this moment im pmssing so bad that i feel like a menace to society. my breast hurt..my knees and my back are aching and if anyone pisses me off in the slightest im going to scream and knock them with my perfect right hook. theres so much to say. ive been spending 24hours with joey and it feel so damn good to have some solo time. ( Read more... )

before i write this...a little note: i taught a writing workshop to some fols in amsterdam. it went really well. out of doing some free writing a poem about my grandma come out. its not done at all.but the night i came home from the workshop i found out that debbie's(my best friend) grandmother died. i found this very interesting and coincidental ( Read more... )

dear jane campion ( Read more... )

im now in paris alone feelin a little overwhelmed. ive spent the last month working at the s trip cllub abd being inlove with joey. weve spent so much together that i keep turning my head expeccting her to be there. damn we had the best sex weve eever had last night...in my opinion. i feel like a loser traveller cause i havent left the ( Read more... )

i have spread my legs for a thousand men. i have stood naked on heels . like a statue. like a lady .like a damn fine whore crawling for strangers making the money she deserves. i have bared my cunt in every position. i have lifted my skirt . i have approached 100 men tonight/ my confidence sticking out like a loose nail. i have giggled and ( Read more... )

today is monday the 15th. i decided to be a tourist in amsterdam and go to the vangogh museam. i love his art...i think its interesting that in all the books they say he was in an asylum / not becausse he was crazy or had mental health issues..but because he was epileptic. maybe it was the vast skies that may have overwhelmed him/ the mysterious ( Read more... )