To those of you that have been in my life for the last 6 years but never truly knew me. This is who I am, the real me ( Read more... )

For the first time in my life, I am completely happy. No fears, No doubts. For 5 years there was doubt, there was misery, there were lies, there was mistrust, there was miscommunication. Because of this there was no want to live. I was alone, lost, spiraling into darkness. Then out of the past, she came back into my life. She held out her hand to ( Read more... )

How did my life end up like this? How did I let myself get this far? For so long I've avoided failing. I avoid it by not trying. Now I just fail at everything. Even the things in my life I once thought I was good at, now I'm not too sure ( Read more... )

The first of the year came and all ounce of hope that my life could become stable crashed into a ball of hell. On the day I was supposed to move into my new apartment, I recieved a phone call from the owner telling me that he didn't want to rent to us any longer ( Read more... )

For so long I've been keeping my thoughts and myself hidden from people. It has gotten to the point where I feel that no one really knows who I am. Although I'm not ready to completely open up, I think I am ready to share more of myself with the people in my life ( Read more... )

All ive ever wanted was to be accepted. But all ive ever gotten was stabbed in the back. Ive been fucked over by everyone and everything that i have ever loved. I give up. Fuck you world! Fuck you.

Why are parents and grandparents so stupid sometimes. Its like every hint of brain power they could have had dissapears as soon as they have children. My grandmother is in complete denial. She can't except that i am going to be moving next year. Everyone thinks im going to come back to new Jersey. Maybe i won't be in california as soon as i ( Read more... )

I never thought the impossible happened, but it did. Today I found out that the stupidest person alive just got stupider. Just a recap for those of you that didn't know, About a week before classes started my bike got stolen off my front porch. After weeks of searching, I finally came to believe that i would probably never see my bike again. So ( Read more... )

Its official, block is starting to really really really suck. I feel like all i do anymore is class, work, eat, buffy, work, sleep, rinse repeat. And the only reason buffy is in this equation is because its otherwise the only time i get to do anything with matt. Im really starting to miss my games. Wow just patched, and i have been really looking ( Read more... )

Happy Birthday to me. My boyfriend is angry at me because i got angry when he called me stupid for using the figure of speech "I have a lot on me plate". Apparently you can only use it when talking about pleasureable things because all you put on a plate is food which is pleasurable. But anyway, he's sleeping till he has too go to work then will ( Read more... )