I would just like to say that I have the most amazing girlfriend in the entire world.
I would also like to say that I love her and I want to spend the rest of my life with her.

I love you.

i am going to change ( Read more... )

so i'm back at school. i am not too sure how i feel about being back already, but it is what it is and there's really nothing i can do about it. the past two days fucking SUCKED but i think it's because i knew that i was leaving home and leaving ash for a while. i hate being away from her. yesterday especially sucked. it was a long freaking ride ( Read more... )

It's waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone's shoulder but their own. You smile, kiss their face in the most ( Read more... )

So Hanukkah starts tonight and this is the first time in all twenty years of my life that I won't be home for ANY of it.  I won't be home to light candles with my family.  I won't be home to have latkes with my family.  I won't be home at all. I can't help but feel really upset about it because I can't even light my own candles here in my room ( Read more... )

wow, i havent written in here in quite a while. i think the last time was ashley's birthday. turns out i was sad for only a little bit because people kept asking me why i wasn't there. i got mad at charles, but my residents knew i was upset and didn't let me frown. especially courtney. i love those girls. but then i went home for a root canal and ( Read more... )

So I called Ashley when I woke up like I promised and her mom, and Nick and her dogs were there (I don't know if Julie was there), and I felt like such an asshole for not being there. And then Ash put her mom on the phone for a little and she started giving me all these nicknames that made me giggle, but then she said, "You're not coming to see ( Read more... )

So I should be at Ashley's right now. But I'm not because I'm an idiot.  I hate the fact that everyone (her best friends and her family) are going to be there and I'm not going to. I'll be stuck here writing a fucking paper for ESL.  There's nothing else I can say about it except that I'm totally devastated that Nancy said "I'm going to be there no ( Read more... )

So if I wasn't such an ass with spending money, I would be on the train on the way to see Ashley right now. Ugh. I really hate myself sometimes. Hopefully she gets the thing I sent her in the mail today or tomorrow. I have class in like fifteen minutes and I REALLY don't want to go.  I even had a dream that I missed it, that's how much I hate this ( Read more... )

So my sister came to visit me this weekend.. and she came on Thursday.  I love my sister very much, but sometimes I forget how much of a difference three years can be sometimes.  When I was her age all I did on the weekends was go out and drink, and now that I'm a little older I got it out of my system.... not her. All she wanted to do was get ( Read more... )