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I'm tempted to show you this
You were saying last night how it's good that I'm being truthful and open, but if I still have something like this where I'm still putting stuff you don't know about, that's not completely open.
So I'll do this as a disclaimer just in case I do. Note how the days I was stupidly down, we either barely spoke or I was ill and feeling depressed like we ( Read more... ) -
I do myself no favours.
I'm so frustrated today and I think it's because I was scrolling through your pictures yesterday. Then last night I had a dream that was fucking awesome, except it was of the variety of dreams I shouldn't be having about us anymore.
Now I'm at work and all I can think about is answers you gave on some of those quizzes. This is going to he a hard day ( Read more... ) -
It's so hard
Knowing that the person I can talk to about anything, can open up to, the person who makes me feel like a king might not be mine one day.
Nobody compares to you and they never will. I'd rather stay alone with the memory of what we had than try to replace it with someone else if you decide you can't be with me, just because I know they won't compare.
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Wow, first big slip
I know I've wanted to add the "so much" when saying I love you but I genuinely felt bad for slipping and doing it.
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All that we've shared will slowly disappear
There's an emptiness inside of me
Since you've been gone
All the world has lost it's meaning, all my colors run
This song has been on every day in work since I've started and it's made me emo every single time.
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Still pushed through
Worked out as soon as I got back, even though I feel like shit.
I can give up on everything but I can't give up on that, my motivation as I've said in previous posts is in place.
I miss being able to tell you about my day, you listening and then giving me a kiss if it was bad. I'm scared to completely open back up in case things don't work out how I ( Read more... ) -
So ill
Barely got any sleep, waking up every half an hour. Feel so sorry for myself. I say what I said in my last post and my self-esteem tells me that means I'll never be with you in the form of dreams.
I've never actually considered myself to be properly depressed, I've always thought I was just feeling a little emo, but this time I'm not so sure.
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So consider my previous post
Consider it me giving up until I feel I'm worthy to be with you. We were talking about goals to set for milestones. My ultimate goal when I hit a milestone will be to continue to fight for you.
That'll be all the motivation I need. I love you so fucking much and I'm going to prove that nobody has ever loved anybody the way I love you, by reaching my ( Read more... )