I found out on New Year's day. It felt like a blow to the ribs and it feels like i can't catch my breath. This past week I've been going through so many emotions, it's just a rollercoaster ride ( Read more... )

In the Winter of 2000, I met a group of guys - some of the nicest people I'd ever meet - during a game of flag football. One of them was already a friend of mine, Josh. The others were friends of his. One in particular, had the best sense of humor, Ben Noblet. We quickly became friends and during one evening, I met his roommate, who would soon ( Read more... )

10. You make me smile
9. You laugh at my silliness
8. You like my hair
7. You challenge me
6. You're an amazing cook
5. You pick me up when I can't do it myself
4. You hold me close when I can't sleep
3. You smell really good
2. You are the best person I know
1. You're my best friend

I feel dead inside. again.

It's been quite a while. My life has changed quite a bit and not so much in others ( Read more... )

Sometimes when this place gets kind of empty ( Read more... )

I think the last post I had on Livejournal was ages ago. I feel like ages ago. I'm 25 years old now. I'm in a crux between my own reality and the universe beyond me. The ground I stand on always feels deceptively stable. Like it will break at any moment. Like the earth is going to break open and swallow me whole ( Read more... )

I hate you.

Your love is better than ice cream ( Read more... )

I need to have a drink.
something fierce.

hate my job.
hate life.
starting to hate the color green.