Well, I told Ben about how I was feeling and this is exactly what he said "awesome...you shouldn't hide your feelings". I was relieved. Then I get a phone call from James and he was like "awww...Lex like Ben". I was red in the face and embarassed. This has been bothering me all day. I don't know who I like more...as musch as I don't want to choose ( Read more... )

Okay, so I'm sitting here and I'm like tottally not feeling so hot...and I'm thinking that if James felt the same way about me that I do him he would break up with his gf for me. And I don't see him doing that anytime soon. *screams and rips hair out ( Read more... )

Yesterday James showed up at my game and he even brought Ben!!! *dances like a crazy person* Both were happy to see me and I was happy to see them. When they had to leave Ben got a hug before James did and Ben was like "haha sucker" and James is like "no she's mine". It turned into tug-of-lex!! It was to great for words. I miss him already ( Read more... )

Well,I have bowling today. I'm not quite sur who we are up against but it should be fun. James said that he might be able to come...I hope he can...I love him so much. Cody might be there. I'm scared. But if James is there he won't let anything happen to me...I know hw wouldn't.

I'm still sick and a little stressed. I finally talked to James after elevevty years and we talked for a little. He is coming to Mo.Valley tonight and might possibly come to my game tommorrow. I hope he can...I really do ( Read more... )

Okay...today was okay. I'm still not feeling my best but i'm trying to make it. I just sent James a message telling him that I love him and waiting for a reply. I found out that Ben and Abbey broke up. So sad both of my good friends and I don't want to take sides. I just let the both of them know that I love them and all that good stuff. So yea... ( Read more... )

Okay, I'm trapped in my mind and I can't get out. I can't stop thinking. I showed all of you what goes on inside that head of mine and its not good. I want to get out. I'm even starting to get sick. I'm scared of everything and its just getting worse. Somebody please help me.

I am going to go hide from everyone forever and ever and never com out.

Okay, so I walk into third hour minding my business when I haeard something about my friend Lauren being anorexic. I didn't know what to say. I didn't understand. She was upset because people were calling her names and she said that she was never gonna eat again. I told her that if she was gonna be like that she wasn't going to be my friend any ( Read more... )

UGGGGGHHHHH...I'm gonna do so bad this week. Today i was writing a paper and I wrote james instead of my name. Here is what is going on in my head right now JAMES JAMES JAME JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES. DOES HE LOVE ME? DOES HE LOVE HER? DOES HE FEEL BAD FOR ME? DO I EVEN MATTER TO HIM? JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES JAMES ( Read more... )