shit, now i am all nostagic ( Read more... )

 i have spent my life being blind because that is all i was told. so i have lived in smell, taste, feel and sound. when i first heard him, alright. when i first felt him it was brief. when i first tasted him i fell into being so close to him that i could smell him. do you know what it is like to smell someone? really smell them? and then without ( Read more... )

 damnit. i still have low self esteem!

 never have i had my own office in my living places. never have i had my own internet. never have i had my very own phone (i just stole my paren'ts extra number) i never had cable. so weird and exilerating having all that. all that and so much more. we are so set right now. feels so good to know that there is nothing more that i could want other ( Read more... )

 so, we are moved in. well, he is moved in and i look to be moved in and a couple times during the week i sneak another four boxes of my CRAP into my bedroom and spend the weekends unpacking those. my old room in my parents house is now empty of everything but the dresser and the desk but they are the lone inhabitants of that room, staying there ( Read more... )

i was just rereading my last couple of posts and laughing so freaking hard ( Read more... )

it's been a while since i felt this human before. it's been a while since i wasn't lying completely to myself.

wow. i have never been this serious with someone in my life before. so...weird. so...interesting. i still can't believe it.

i still have this image in my mind when i first met him. when i saw him i NEVER thought he would be...this incredible man i know now. for the first time in many a year i am excited about christmas. my family wants him around, ( Read more... )

heh ( Read more... )

 ok, slight freakage. just slight though.

he talks about a life together. getting our own place. maybe getting married.

i am freaking not because he said that... i am more freaking out that i am doing the math in my head to how fast we could get to las vegas for one of those elvis impersonators.