*hugs back* I'm ok now that the assignments are in. My brain has a "Well, there's nothing we can do now" mode that it clicks into when I'm past whatever is deemed "the point of no return", which, for assignments means once I've turned 'em in.
If it helps, I get this anxiety too. I say this because I think I'm pretty good at hiding it so you may not have known that. But I always get that initial fight-or-flight "Oh shit what have I done, I'm in over my head" feeling when I start anything new, really. I was a wreck when I started at ILM. :)
I actually didn't know that, though I'm also not shocked to hear it?
The thing that frustrates me is that it's *not* new. I've taken classes from 2 of the 3 professors I have this quarter before. All my classes are within my department. I've been at this school for a year now, and I've been in college for how frelling long?
I get this stupid fight-or-flight always when I have an assignment that feels like it took serious work to get out, before I turn it in. Once I've turned it in, I guess something kicks in to say "there's nothing I can do" and I let it go, but between when I start the assignment and when I turn it in, I'm a wreck holding myself together by sheer force of will.
I noticed something interesting the other night, with perlandria keeping me company while I worked out my calendar for the quarter.
While I'm anxious, and in the planning stage of something - while I'm thinking about it - I crave sweets
( ... )
Yeah, it's still a new class - it's understandable to freak out. I can only imagine how I will freak out once I have the baby. Just keep reminding myself that I'm pretty darn and once I dive in most people are impressed with my work. I guess that's a way of saying, "I'm good enough, I'm smart enough, and doggone it people like me." :D
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The thing that frustrates me is that it's *not* new. I've taken classes from 2 of the 3 professors I have this quarter before. All my classes are within my department. I've been at this school for a year now, and I've been in college for how frelling long?
I get this stupid fight-or-flight always when I have an assignment that feels like it took serious work to get out, before I turn it in. Once I've turned it in, I guess something kicks in to say "there's nothing I can do" and I let it go, but between when I start the assignment and when I turn it in, I'm a wreck holding myself together by sheer force of will.
I noticed something interesting the other night, with perlandria keeping me company while I worked out my calendar for the quarter.
While I'm anxious, and in the planning stage of something - while I'm thinking about it - I crave sweets ( ... )
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