I have put my christmas decorations up this year as well cause I am unhappy without it, It is christmas decorations every where outside, and in stores, other peoples homes. It is quite nice. i know, I know as a pagan I am not supposed to have that. But those stuff I have can be for the winter solstice as well like christmas tree/yuletree, christmas ( Read more... )

I met an old friend Marietta yesterday, that i went to artschool with, It was nice to see her, I hope we will meet again, perhaps hangout now that she has moved back. I have felt bad that she didnt wanna be with me anymore.  Marietta told me that she had thought about me at times but had felt very bad and lost lost contact with many friends. I said ( Read more... )

When I spoke to Odin once when Jen was shadowing Him, I agreed to that we could communicate if that was ok by Morgana. Afterwards I felt like He would stalk me and bother me a lot. But nothing happened. I didnt even feel His presence when I translated The white viking. all of this made me feel that He is wasnt that bad then, cause I was very low ( Read more... )

I feel like I am so alone, I fel all the pain, misery loneliness I prefore to hide from, prefore to drug myself instead of feeling it, dealing with it. I dont have any pills either anymore. I dont need them I suppose, I just like to take it cause it stopped the pain, anger, panic anxiety to go out of controle. I have tea instead I do some chants ( Read more... )

I went to the lake early on the morning at the Samhain as I was asked. It was that place where I usually bike too, but I took the bus. It was nice to get out of town. It was very peaceful there, just me and Her, Morgana Ceridwen and some crows, seaguils. I did my rituals and I ask Them  stuff. I could feel The Morrigan being near me, watching me, ( Read more... )

I am almost done with my chakra affirmation art. I need to put on more details then I will put them on flickr, before Samhain on sunday. Loads of unresolved pain and strange delusional things has come up to the surface. It was rough, but it passed away more quickly then earlier. I get the feeling Morgana makes me face it as a part of the healing ( Read more... )

I had to work friday evening and half of the night again. Since there is some crazy person in malmo who have shot 15 people the last few weeks. It felt really scary to bike to work and home. I saw serveral police cars passing me by on both ways. I felt the Ladies presence very strong all the way. So i wasnt that scared. Just worried that I wouldnt ( Read more... )

I have been drawing and painting when I have called on Ceridwen, been inspired to exploring new ways of seeing things, worked on my fantasy art. Check it out on my Flickr. Much more is coming up. I feel free and inspired. I could easily draw and paint all days and nights. I am unhappy without it. I will do more efforts to do it when I get home from ( Read more... )

I traveled sunday morning to the Hills of Brosarp. I checked in right away then started to walk towards the woods. The wheather was wonderful, not too cold, sunny.  I walked on the hills, and through the woods all day, I drew alot, and painted a few paintings. I felt a bit restless and moody in the beginning, but after a few hours it was gone, I ( Read more... )