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Driving
Is cathartic. Now it is time for some bed-time goodness. A little sleep, if you will. :) -
i am home.
when i fly i do so out of a boredom that lingers and rests in my soul. I don't want to leave home for good. Ever. I love my boyfriend, Louis. I love him with my entire soul and heart. Sometimes when we argue things get shitty but I know they will work out. The thing I am most thankful for in my life aside from my life itself is this: love ( Read more... ) -
Hello There.
I was born on April 4th, 1984. My life has been a life filled with trouble and mishappenings. I know now that it wasn't my fault. I KNEW it before but couldn't express it and so when my words failed me, I failed me. It was only through education that I was able to realize exactly what happened to me. Tireless search efforts, night after night ( Read more... ) -
To Want
Unaltered from myself, to truly want. That is what I have always wanted. I could never see the gap in my logic and reasoning. And so, could not be a complete and whole being. I want to give you what you give me. I want to really REALLY REALLY see. Tell me. Talk to me. How do you see things? Without knowing what is inside of you, I can not ( Read more... ) -
O.o Eye Openers (a work in progress)
The pendulum
I have been told my entire life that it is impossible to both be who I was and be able to accept everyone else around me for who they are. I have been told I have to accept everyone for who they are, not just what I think about them. I've been told that in order to get through life successfully, I have to know myself as a person and act ( Read more... ) -
I am aware.
Update on Goals:
1. I want to start writing my own music. I am thinking about searching for music writing software since I dont know any musicians and I can't play any instruments. I can sing... but thats about as far as it goes. So I guess this is a two part: A) Purchase music writing software (like Band in a Box or something similar) and B) Start ( Read more... ) -
Nuggets of Universal Truth
emotional trauma
From my point of view it is caused by us lacking something in our life that we haven't noticed yet. We react strongly, as if we're throwing a fit, even if nothing is really wrong, because in our head we are still "in the moment" of when the big bad "trauma" happened and cannot escape.
This is what is meant by History is doomed to ( Read more... ) -
More on Self-Help stuff
“Human bodily experience is characterized by the immediate feeling that our body is localized at a certain position in space and that the self is localized within these body borders (embodiment). Recent research from cognitive neuroscience and neurology suggests that embodiment is of major importance for neuroscientific models of self and self- ( Read more... ) -
Quiet... and working.
Hello Never-ever land,
Life these days is good. I wake up feeling like I want to be here. Routines do not bother me. So what? Routines are life. I go to school Monday through Thursday. I work Fri-Sun. I have off every other Saturday and the ones i *do* work I only have to work from 5p-10p.
Your friendly neighborhood Carolyn has been up to much, and ( Read more... )