I've never wanted to be a hero
First of all, your three votes:
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[ b a s i c s ]
Name/Alias: Elisabeth, also known as Lin (or Barbarian, old nickname from medecine university)
Age: 21 (alas, and going on 22)
Gender: Physically female. People seem to disagree on my actual gender.
Which gender do you want to be stamped as?: I don't care. Amuse me.
Are you re-applying? If so, tell us the character you were stamped as: Nope, newbie here
[ i n - d e p t h ]
Likes: Learning, the cold, lemon, spices, books, writing, playing video games (alas), martial arts, archery, sports and working out in general (yes, I lift wheights when I have the time and courage, which used to be twice a week), making perverted jokes, singing, nighttime, swimming in rivers
Dislikes: Cucumber, homophobia, gender roles in general, watching tv for too long, the heat or sunlight, sweets (with the exception of things sweet and acid or sweet and spicy. See lemon sweets or crystalized ginger), geography
Fears: Losing control, being unable to protect those I love (gee that sounds cheesy), making the wrong decisions, losing my brains (er, not literally. Though that would be pretty scary, too) or mind
Pet Peeves: Homophobia and gender roles (as stated above), people who would rather keep their happy little prejudice when given hints that they might be wrong instead of trying to see further, not protecting your younger siblings
Goals in life: Right now I'm studying to be a researcher. But really... I don't know. I just want to be able to do my own thing, I guess. I'm not aiming for a nobel prize, I just like research. I don't want to be rich. I don't want to be famous.
Being strong wold be good, though. I can't stand being weak.
Losing some wheight would be good, but that's related to the previous one.
Describe your personality: I'm a strange mix, I guess. I have a very large ego which will stop me from accepting anything but the best in what I do, and refuse any help (very bad manly trait I chose there), but a terrible self-esteem, which means I never believe I'm capable of getting/doing said things. I tend to hate myself most of the time, and yet I don't trust people to do things in my stead.
A major point though would be that I am overprotective. When I love somebody, I will do anything to protect them or to get to them. I tend to put my own problems aside and put my everything into finding a solution. Recently though I've had such sh*t on my side that i've had to take care of that instead of helping my friends and loved ones. As a result? My health went down dramatically. I can be strong for others, but nearly never for myself. (amusingly, I still helped. But my body was already messed up)
Since I don't much like myself, I tend to hide myself, in plain view because being loud is the best way to not have people sneak around to see what you're hiding behind it. Mostly what I hide is aggressivity, battlelust, or things related to sexuality. On an amusing side note, I can never bring myself to hate people.
I tend to not care about mankind and people in general, but the people I love I do with a passion. The downside being that the lines between friendship and love blur too easily. That being said I'm extremely loyal, so if I consider myself taken i'll never try anything with anyone else.
And this is becoming TL:DR, but if i had to summarize, I'd say high pride when it comes to expectations, but very low proud when it comes to believing in myself, overprotective, loyal, talkative but secretive when it comes to the important stuff, intelectual, sarcastic, cynical.
And I love crack.
Five positive traits about you: Smart, creative, protective, loyal, adapts easily
Five negative traits about you: Too cynical at times, self-depreciative, overprotective to the point it can become overwhelming, lazy at times, can be really uncaring with people I don't care about.
Favourite quote/your motto: "We are all in the gutter, but some of us are looking at the stars". By Oscar Wilde. There are several different meanings to this, if you pay attention.
But it's the perfect defense when people say I'm perverted
[ c h o i c e s ]
Please try to explain
Mature or Immature?: I find myself immature. My best friend tells me I'm mature. So I don't know. But most of the time I find a lot of people's reactions dreadfully immature, so...
Leader or Follower?: I'm usually independant. I don't like depending on others, so group work for example is something I tend to dislike. Revising in a group is ok. producing something as a group is not. I like to control everything. So sometimes leader, but mostly independant. I prefer to do things myself.
Outgoing or Shy?: I'm very loud so people don't see what's behind it. Is that being outgoing or shy?
Confident or Modest?: I talk a lot about myself, but mostly in negative terms, so I'll say modest. The only things I'm confident in are my singing, my ability to play one video game, and my ability to think.
Optimistic, Pessimistic, and/or Realist?: I'm a pessimist who sees the glass half full because I expected it to be totally empty and am agreably surprised.
Energetic or calm?: I'm bi-polar when it comes to this. I can need calm like woah and become nearly violent in my search for it, but mostly I prefer being active.
Listener or Speaker?: I can do both. I tend to talk a lot, but if a friend comes to see me with a problem, i'll listen. That being said, just listening and not giving counsel is out of the question, unless I really don't have any to give.
Impulsive or Cautious?: My heart is impulsive, but my actions are oh so cautious. I think a LOT before doing things.
Playful or Serious?: Mostly playful, but there are a few subjects on which I am serious as hell.
[ r e a l m ]
Do you prefer attacking at close-range, long-range or not at all?: Hum... I love magic, but I think i'm a close-range person. Blame the battle-lust mentioned earlier. Let's forget the fact that fighting can literally turn me on, shall we?
Are you most likely to work alone or in a group?: Gods, in a group I'll spend my time worrying about others instead of taking care of myself. Either you give me a post as strategist, where doing it is my only job, in which case I can be very efficient, or you leave me alone or with only one partner with whom I can fight back to back. But a group? No.
In the battlefield where can someone find you?(healing, attacking, supporting, etc): I can do the planning/supporting, because I'm pretty good at it, but if you want me happy I'll be in the fray.
Most important of all, what is the reason for you to fight?: Apart because I simply like fighting? I dunno, I tend to try and convince myself that I would NOT enjoy it for the sheer sake of fighting if it was a life or death situation. I'm not totally convinced.
But most likely I'll be there to save or protect a loved one. Big causes are not that likely to draw me in. If I have someone home waiting for me or that I need to protect, why go risk my life for a cause.
Anything else you'd like to add?:
Are we allowed to do old themes or not? I didn't see it in the rules (though I might have missed it)