i think i may be falling in love?
and she thinks we are just 'rekindling our friendship'

i used to think i was bi, used to being like 3 minets ago. but at the basketball game tonight, i couldn't even look at the guys. i could only stare at kt, to whom ive never spoken. i don't think i should talk to her because what if she seems less gay in person? i would be so upset. AND NOW, TO MAKE MATTERS WORSE, SHES DATING MY EX-BOYFRIEND IM ( Read more... )

just fell upon me. a weight of depression. andno reason for. it. stream of conciousness. my conciecness doesnt stream. it anylizes. i just want to eat right now. but i hate food. i want to chop off all my hair but i just cut it. and i would look ugly with short hair.

god why od i care about anything.

so now im almost sure coco is at least bi, and we are hanging out this weekend. i was just thinking how raunch it would feel to be known as the gay girl. im also noticing that i tend not to be feminine. which sucks. i mean, i want to be true to myself and who i am in entirety, but i DON"T EVER want to be butch. ever. i want to be a lez babe ( Read more... )

( wanna see a sweet hat and read something real boring? )

it sucks to have to desipher somebodys sexuality before resigning to feeling.  it sucks to have to withhold feeling.

so ive done all of "the L word"s tests on her, she has short nails (but plays some fucking hardcore bball), wears converse, but sometimes mary janes (bad sign), and makes lots of eye contact with me, she flirts with me constantly and ( Read more... )

i was walking, and it was the point in the evening when the sky is purple. i felt lonely for a second so i called ellery in NY left a message, called ross and accidentally was a bitch (ross is my ex: don't know who im talking to, i wanna get with is sister REAL BAD) , then called lauren and was akward. that fucking summs up my life. a best ( Read more... )