more like you'll be dead when it's over, because it was a bastard. this is the most hectic dead week i've ever had. and frankly, i'll be happy when it's over. i need our wine and cheese party to be here. like, bad. it's going to be fun, i've decided. and uh, i'm not even worried about finals week because i have two, and i have all the time in the ( Read more... )

goddamn, it's almost done. i can't believe it. it took me so long to start it and now i'm actually almost done. i made the first round of corrections from my boss and now i wrote the rest, which i'm sure there are going to be lots more corrections and add-ins, but oh well. i actually haven't minded writing it either. it came rather easy and it's ( Read more... )

had an interesting conversation with my boss' boss the other day when all i did was go pick up a microscope. he asked me if i wanted to get my masters. i said i did but that my grades weren't good enough to get into a master's program. he said that he could get me into fresno state (where i wouldn't have to pay tuition because my mom works there ( Read more... )

and i feel really weird. it's usually one of my favorite days, but something about me is not right. i just took a nap and it wasn't very good. i still have a headache and if i wake up with one tomorrow, i know it's going to be a long week. i do not like how i feel right now.

this week of hell is over. three midterms and two quizzes later, i think i'm actually still alive. OH, and a presentation thrown into the mix. sweet. so i thought i was done yesterday when i was leaving school, but oh no. babysitting was still to come, and had i known how it would all go down, i would have stayed home and blown off babysitting. ( Read more... )

once i finally stopped feeling sorry for myself, i was fine. i'm doing really well and i've been listening to country a lot which I LOVE. it helps so much. and i'm finally getting my new car! i had to settle for no power package, but who cares. it's the color i want and it's a stick. so whatever. i'll settle for no power windows and doorlocks, but ( Read more... )

if i'm doing the right thing then why the hell am i still so sad? i haven't seen or talked to him for like forever but the feelings aren't going away! GODDAMMIT. i feel like yelling and running away somewhere nobody can find me. jesus christ. thank god i have choir practice tonight because i need an outlet. it ended today and i'm upset because i ( Read more... )

and it was full of rachel! we went out on friday night, starting at her house drinking wine, then got a ride dowtown. holy shit, downtown was sooo much FUN. we definitely got drinks from my favorite bartender, only he made us huge drinks. so a full size sex on the beach later...haha, rachel and i were feelin' pretty good. we went downtstairs and ( Read more... )

it's just not that appetizing at the moment. i'm not eating again. i can't really afford to be doing that. but i'm so stressed and my neck hurts so bad that it's making me not want to eat. i've been drugged non stop for about two and a half weeks. BLAH. actually smoked with taylore last night just to make it all go away, and what do you know, i ( Read more... )

how nice it is to be here finally. it's so relaxing. but i still have major pain in my neck and head. i have another massage appt on tuesday so hopefully we'll take care of it then. but other than that, home has been nice. my mom, dad and i went golfing today at our favorite place and it was so fun. we laughed, we cursed, but all in all, i learned ( Read more... )