If you were in a relationship with someone, would you use the words "I sacrifice my time to be with you"? The word SACRIFICE is what gets me ( Read more... )

It's a full moon tonight ( Read more... )

I feel sick. My boyfriend of almost one year still won't admit he loves me. The only reason I know at all is because he confessed it when he was incredibly drunk. And so I continue to feel unloved and unappreciated. Like I can't be loved for being who I am because no one is happy unless I am who they want me to be ( Read more... )

"I'm not holding my breath." I said. "There will always be some excuse, some reason you'll never come."

"That's fine," he said. "Just open the door when I get there."

I'm still waiting, turning blue.

How can you strike true
With the words that you say
Words cutting through
To the heart of me

I bleed from open wounds
The doctor tells me
It's not true
I'm only skin deep
But he said nothing
About the still waters
Running deep
Through my veins

You cut me open
And I bleed for you
No longer red, its blue
I am an open wound

So I've been thinking of going into the military for the past few years. I kept thinking army because that's what my boyfriend is in but he would probably kill me. Not that I care. But my dad suggested Air Force communications so I would be able to stay in the states. Not a bad suggestion. I don't know that I would survive bootcamp though. They ( Read more... )

So, I have IBS.. and its wreaked havoc on my intestines. I basically can't eat a meal without feeling sick. I've had it for almost 3 years now and have tried different types of meds that don't work. They wanted to do a study on me but it required me being off my anxiety/depression meds and I was not about to do that because I am a full on monster ( Read more... )

It's one of those nights again. I can't sleep and my depression is higher than ever. I can't miss school tomorrow either. My anxiety has been so high I feel like crawling out of my skin and screaming til my lungs or heart bursts. I've gotten so low as to resort to watching sex and the city because nothing else is on. I don't even want to sleep. I ( Read more... )

My depression is at an all time high and I find myself coming here for solace. I haven't written in a long time. Talking about my feelings is not something I do often or to many people. I just need some kind of release ( Read more... )

You ever feel like you're living your life for someone else ( Read more... )