least of all myself

some people have no grace.

hosea 6:1-7 ( Read more... )

1. initials: jlk ( Read more... )

so i smoked again today. *sigh*. i feel terrible. but i just had to decide yet again that i would not do it again. i need to fight the lie that because i've relapsed that means that i should just give up and start again. i don't want/need that. so i won't. i want to quit for god. but i really need my friends help right now. i need people to pray ( Read more... )

a simple yet arduous sentence ( Read more... )

i feel a sort of apprehension regarding the following post. i think its because i know how important this all is to me, and i feel awkward about sharing it with a gazillion (potentially) people who might not care ( Read more... )

i just had the first real meal in like almost a week (6 days that is). i was doing this cleanse, and its over (well its supposed to go for about 4 more days, but whatever) and darin took us for sushi and i can't even explain how amazing it was. my tongue was tingling. it was like a party in my mouth. but now my tummy feels roundular again. ew.

I'm so ridiculously happy right now. last night was probably one of the most beautiful nights i've ever experienced, and i am so tired now, because i made the vital (yes, foolish as well) decision to not sleep because i didn't want to miss any of it. so here i am, with three hours of sleep, and i'm working tonite. ryan will appreciate it i'm sure, ( Read more... )

today is a better day than yesterday. which, for all those who don't see me on a daily basis, is a good thing, because yesterday was one of the worst days of my life.