I really need to learn to relax, and let go of my past. but FUCK its hard.

Can I just relax for a second? I'm too uptight and I need to go out and experience the world and the things people do when they're young. I'm to old for my own good and often times way to young, I need to fix this. somehow it needs to be fixed...

...*sigh ( Read more... )

You know its funny i'm sitting here drinking tea listening to irish folk music, being the little hobbit i am. And my sister calls me, and my cousin isabella who is only 8 is in the hospital and needs brain surgery. She's been having bad seizures and is now hallucinating. fuck. what do we do when we hear stuff like that? Its i guess one of the many ( Read more... )

And that is what this is for ( Read more... )

HAHAHAHA ITS FINALLY OVER! I"M OVER THE WOMAN! i went to the myspace and i don't care anymore! it doesn't hurt! wooooooooooot! man awesome! i hope this lasts lol ( Read more... )

I'm soooooo fucking done ( Read more... )

Its funny, no matter how much you, can talk about something, no matter how much you talk about something, the thoughts never seem real, the resolutions never seem final. And its about time i make decisions its time i own up to myself about what i am and who i am. I've spent the past 4 months trying desperately to come to some conclusion in my mind ( Read more... )

I have the strangest urge to update this thing, and I'm assuming its cause i was just listening to Modest Mouse, and i started to feel nastolgic. Damn i miss everyone, Drew, Ben, Fuzz, Michelle, Lucio, Cliff. and Lauren. Its been a long time since we all just hung out together and thats needs to change and luckily Michelle and Lauren are coming for ( Read more... )

Life fucking sucks, I've come to the honest conclusion that no matter what, life will always fuck you over somehow. Happy for one second and next thing you know your life is upside down and sucking and why do we all do this? I'm so tired of everything i'm physically from all the pain I'm feeling ( Read more... )