Firstly I want to mention that my life isn't as bad as I make it out to be most days. I do have bad days, as everyone else, but my bad days consist of feeling like ass, nightmares in which I wake up panting and in a horrid fright, seeing things that aren't there on occasion, and doubting everything and everyone ( Read more... )

PS from way earlier this morning

To Boy it May Concern:
I'm still aware I'm not what guys look at and see as "hot". However, I still had hope personality had something to do with it.

Proven wrong once again.

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Setting myself up for disaster.

I think I need another two hour cry in the shower.

I love you all?

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Somebody date me...
LoL, JESUS I sound desperate, but I really mean no harm.

I'm a truly horrible person, and not worthy of friendship ( Read more... )

I'm ready for the butterflies again ( Read more... )

Alright, my last post - although I felt every word of it, was a rant ( Read more... )

I want to be done with this. I want my head to stop throbbing, my heart to stop beating, and my blood to stop flowing. I want to take the easy way out. I'm tired of doing things the hard way! It hurts. It hurts really effing bad. I want to be held while I cry but nobody is there. I want to be heard when I scream but nobody is there. I want ( Read more... )

what do you do when the only thing you've ever truly wanted is JUST out of arms reach? so close you can smell it, see it, hear it; but it is unobtainable. how do you handle that ( Read more... )

Love me.
Hate me.
Kill me.
Save me.

I don't give a f*ck what you do with me anymore.

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::emily::

No. Wait. Stop. Please don't leave me! Take me with you! I don't eat too much and I'm quiet if you want me to be. I can't be here anymore. I'm seventeen, I can go now. I asked. I can go NOW, so lets go. We can go where we've always dreamt of going. Of where you've always dreamt of going. I'm in it for the company. You don't have to ( Read more... )