Happiness is a choice.

So I haven't updated much lately, so here's how I feel ( Read more... )

I was looking back at some of the livejournal entries I've made since around May 2004.  I remember thinking that writing was the only way I was going to get out all the new and intense feelings I was consumed with-- short of punching Chris in the nose.  I was thinking about how helpless and hopeless I felt... and how I'd never felt that way until ( Read more... )

Well, I suppose I'll update this before Heather kills me :) Our apartment is so pretty! We got such good deals on all the stuff we got. Our families have helped us out a lot and we got brand new couches and a chair & attoman for $300... an entertainment ctr, tv, and dvd player for $325... and a kitchen table for free ( Read more... )

My new apartment is so pretty! I love it. Heather and I have our rooms and bathrooms all finished, RC's still working on his. Our kitchen is finished too! And pretty! We're getting a matching couch, loveseat, chair and attoman tomorrow. We still need a kitchen table and chairs... so if anyone knows where we can get one cheap, let me know! I ( Read more... )

"i know there's something in the wake of your smile... listen to your heart, when he's calling for you... listen to your heart, there's nothing else you can do... i don't know where you're going and i don't know why... listen to your heart, before you tell him goodbye"

He's always had my heart and it's hard to deny that. I'm scared of it all, but ( Read more... )

My grandma went to heaven... she had a stroke in December and passed away on Monday at 10am. My Dad, my Aunt, my Uncle, and my Grandpa were there (two of her sons were on their way to Pcola)... she opened her eyes for the first time in days, smiled, and went to heaven... no joke... how cool is that!? She missed her mom so much... she would cry ( Read more... )

Some things don't change...

February 14, 2005--------- I love you so much, it makes my heart hurt... I hate you so much that my palms hurt and squeezing them only makes me more angry. I want to drive to your house and throw my arms around you and tell you that I forgive you no matter what, and it doesnt matter that you lied to me... that you ( Read more... )

I'm kinda sad... I miss someone... I hate that feeling