with every day that passes its just unexplainable, there arent words to describe it. i can't go on any more about how things will be different and how things that have happened in the past will never happen again and that all i ask is for your care and love. i can't beg and plead anymore with you because its not going to work. i hope you know i'm ( Read more... )

just a thought... what is the point of a break if neither of the two parties involved plan on doing anything with anyone else.  i need to stop thinking about this so much and like overanalyzing it. seriously though.. like i will give all the space  wanted and all the time needed, i just dont see whats the reason? maybe im just like not looking at ( Read more... )

wow i havent written in this thing in FOREVER ( Read more... )

well i graduated and turned 18 and it was one year with my baby, all of this in just a month. i hope everything works out with me and john when i go to college, we're doing so great and things just seem to keep getting better and better as time passes. i got a really nice necklace and pendant from tiffany's from bear and i love them so much!! ( Read more... )

so prom was excellent and spending the entire weekend with my favorite boy ever was even better. i made over 100 jello shots between saturday and sunday and they were both gone within an hour because people such as myself were doing 8 or 9 at a time... not too smart ahhah. broke in the beer bong and our west chester flip cup team went undefeated ( Read more... )

so i went to udel with my cha hill ladies and it was probably the most excellent night ever. even though it seemed like it was going to take an eternity to get there somehow jeanna got us there in an hour, if that. we went to her boyfriends apartment where we were staying for the night.. he looked exactly like paul wall. anywho we pregamed and went ( Read more... )

well i havent written in this in ages so here it goes; i guess having you in my life is a gift and a curse. you have the ability to make me the happiest girl in the world but also make me feel lower than i've ever felt before. i feel like i have to hold back when i'm around you...ugh i dont know sometimes =[   i'm trying really hard to get you to ( Read more... )

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i dont even know how to explain my life nowadays... i make decisions i know i shouldnt and i know if ant were still alive, he wouldnt want me to be living life like this.

im high or drunk or both the entire weekend and the weekdays are semi sober. i dont know why i cant just stop. i have to learn how to say no and to learn how to resist all of ( Read more... )

so i'm basically the last person anyone wants to tell jokes to when they have anything to do with death and car accidents. telling me he died in a car accident when i know full well hes alive and fine, is messed up. ive fucking known you for how many years and you disrespect me like that? thats fucking low because you knew my good friend died in ( Read more... )