.. . . . . I hate masking my everyday feelings up. I don't feel happy ( Read more... )

To all the girls that have come and gone in my life. Thanks for allowing me to destroy myself, for not beleiving me when I spoke the truth how only I could ( Read more... )

:( I'm cut up.I don't know why, I don't knwo why I do this to myself either. Why does Jimmy Eat World mean so much to me?

Meh.

Seriously how long has it been since I last recorded my thoughts, or at least as much of my thoughts as I can bear to transfer to text ( Read more... )

Gah, the only reason I ever use this is when I have something stupid to get off my chest. Normally it is nothing really, or at least by the time I start to txt it has lessened in its intensity. Then I cannot think of what to type.

I miss her, or do I just miss what I do not have? I can't get past this feeling, its killing me :(

Well im a cock, for fuck sake. I just destroyeveryhting and anything:( I just upset people and I never mean to I just do. Its ridiculous. I never tell or tlak against my mum yet last ngih I went off on one because she was annoyed i'd been drinking. Why did I do that? I was just a knob prolly to eveyone andI do't know what I'm doing naymore. I'm ( Read more... )

gah, well today has been good and bad. decorated my room, its now green and stuff. found out that the last month of feeling gay because i thought there might be a chance with the girl was all false. time to move on :) i guess its like it for everyone with someone or something that meant alot to them its hard to forget, but it shapes you for the

i hate karma, i hate girls, i hate beer, i hate life. i wish eveything would fuck off and be good. i can't sleep. i wish i could just hug her. well thats fucked off. shes gonna want to be friends :(

feeling fucked up at the minute. my brother has finally returned to manchester, i mean it's cool having him around but its like he's in my space. i just end up getting fucked off because i'm relativly self sufficient and he's spoon fed everything. i ask for nothing, i rarely complain. i try and help although i usually forget or something stupid, so ( Read more... )

Hey, so feeling a bit better. Decided to just drink water and juice and stuff, no coke no beer for a while see how it makes me feel. something strange happened not long ago, and altough its what i have wanted for months i'm left wondering how its left me feeling. all this time thinkin of seeng this girl and finlly doing so, but i dunno i'm being ( Read more... )