well i'm going to someone's hotel tonight and we'll see what magic happens there. like the person i slept with, i don't know the person's name of where i'm going. i don't even know anyone there i'm just getting a ride there ( Read more... )

aloha dance and pep rally tonight. its supposed to be sad for the seniors but then happy at the same time. i think its sad because some of them thing they have it bad when they're missing out on a lot of their life being sad and drinking and doing drugs. like that really makes their world go round...stupid. why the fuk are people wasting their ( Read more... )

So, I haven't updated in a while because ive been really busy. im sry. i went to another party for after-prom ppl and hooked up w/ some really drunk ppl who were all dressed up from prom. i also got really drunk. y cant i just do one frekin thing right?? i drink to much, so i try to be straight edge. but i fuk that up to. the only ppl who r ( Read more... )

hello. so i am in a place which i have never entered n im feeling something ihave never experienced. everything is so foreign and either too hardcore or straight edge...what happened to the happy mediums? oh nm they're fukt, like me. prom is coming up and i was invited but i i scared that ill no longer be sXe because of the easy access to alcohol ( Read more... )

it was a bit better today, my mother offered to make me dinner last night, and it actually didn't taste like shit. she makes a mean grilled cheese sandwich and crackers. i told her it was good. i also didn't try to puke it up. my throat is starting to burn away and it hurts a little but the cutting makes that pain go away ( Read more... )

i am now going to sleep...god i hope i never wake up.
as i lay in bed w/the blood stains,cookie crums, and headphones....i hope i never wake up.

sXe 4life

well last nite i was prepared to be straight edge & all that. i even drew an x on my hand and everything... i hung out with some ppl & didnt drink or anything like that. so i was doing really good w/ the sXe thing and then i heard about this party for this girl named courtney or sumthing so we went over there and man, i got hella crunked and wasted ( Read more... )

dear sick sad world ( Read more... )

Well last night was this huge party.... I got totally drunk and made out with a whole bunch of people. Then I realized what an awful person I was. I had to leave the party and I drove home. I thought about how I get totally crunked all the time and how I can't stand who I am now. I listened to some emo music and I cut my wrists and cried... ( Read more... )