So, I got deferred. Twice. Awesome. I'm not that upset, I guess. Mostly I'm just frustrated that I have to keep doing these awful applications. I would never sing in a talent show, so I have no fucking idea what song I'd sing. Anyway, it's sort of just a FUCK YOU YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT YOU WANT in essence, and they don't think I'm right for the school ( Read more... )

"Spike and Angel, President Roslin and Gaius Baltar, Harry and Hermione-shippers often find pairings that the original author might have overlooked. What coupling of fictional characters would you most like to see?"

Dear Olivia,
That was the "writer's block" suggestion that LJ gave me. Why are we afraid of Buffy ending? We have Angel in our ( Read more... )

I don't know what did it, but in the last few months I've forgotten everything that my mind liked to think about. I don't even have time to think about words anymore. We write so little in English it makes me sick, and the writing that I do for the newspaper is always the last thing, and it's always trite and lame and boring.

I hate when it's the ( Read more... )

Maybe I realized why I don't post on this, like, ever. Fairly recently, I developed a complex that kept me from being able to write on a computer. I used to do it all the time; it used to be easier. But, this year the blinking cursor became a jeopardy-like timer, counting the eternal seconds of wasted writers-block time. Yet, here I am, making an ( Read more... )

I'm submitting this to LodeStar . And if anyone thinks that is lame then they can go suck a dick, because this is one of my favorite pieces that's ok for people to read. Therefore, I'd like people to read it. I'm not really sure how I feel about the actual event (or entire period) now, though. I still remember being content, but now I question what ( Read more... )

Someone needs to help me convince myself that I don't need a boy. Boys are stupid and a waste of time and at this point in my life, they are really not worth it. I was completely boy-less for like a month there, and it was amazing. I didn't worry about anything except things that matter, like school and myself and my friends. And I was happy. I was ( Read more... )

I'M GOING TO SEE BRIGHT EYES. YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY.

Also, "Land Locked Blues" is one of the most interesting songs to think about. I like it. You should too.

Also, I'm putting off homework right now. Homework's a bitch.

Some people don't deserve all the shit that comes to them. Some people deserve none of the shit that comes to them. Maddie never deserved any of the shit that she's ever had to deal with. Nobody should have to deal with what's being dealt with now ( Read more... )

From 11-19-05, freshman year.

"I wish I could write poetry. I wish I could write prose. I wish I had a clear, repeatable way to express myself clearly. I wish I could express myself at all. I wish I had will. I wish I could will myself to do whatever I wanted. I wish I did not rely on my surroundings to force me to do things. I wish I didn't get ( Read more... )

I wish I had something interesting to say. I really don't. Not about life or love or myself. Actually, when I think about it, nothing really big is going on right now. My life's pretty boring. And I love it.

That's all.

I guess what I had to say was: I'm back.