stuck in a bad way.
heart is howling.
wanting the pain.

hating the need.
flooded with old feelings.
vices.
hard wired to fail.

success is sweet.
clear conscience.
free of substance.

circus sideshow.
the amazing unhappy.
so.

forward progress.
always hurts.

not so strong.

its just not me.

no one knows.

delicate flower.

you laugh.
it only hurts a little.

just like it always has.
to keep losing.

to not see through all the lies.

who i thought you were.

all of you.

myself included.
moving on.

still hurting.

forgive.

never forget.

you overlooked one thing.
free will...

i made my choices.

they dont always make me happy

in fact they RARELY do.

and ill be the first to admit i want it all.
i want everyone and all they have to give.
and youll get nothing in return.
ill cut you deep.
and i wont let go.

i told you.
im broken.
youll never fix me.
you cant make me happy.
you are. not enough ( Read more... )

today.
glad someones keeping track.

just another dance ill spend with my back against the wall.

lets just stop drop everything. forget each others names.. and just walk away.
turn around and head in different directions.. like we never knew each other at all.

never looking back. loving every second of it.
we just walk away.

the more i feel the more i die ( Read more... )

still strong.. i feel like im being tested.
how much can you take?

new pics from a photoshoot i did with david maki. <3 snap.flash.photo.com

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"When I recovered from her death in the crudest sense I started to see her in the streets, always fleetingly, ahead of me, her back to me, disappearing into the crowd.  I am told this is common.  I see her still, though less often, and still for a second believe it is her.  I have from time to time found something of hers among my possessions. ( Read more... )

so ive been neglecting this...
as with everything else in my life...
but im making progress.
here are some pictures i took along the way.

Type your cut contents here.
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wheresmybabyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy... hahahhahshaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhahah.

working my way.. towards being with.. the living.
leveling out. taking control.

leaving this place. this life.
learning a better way.

so i needed some help...
but im crawling to my feet.

im going to love life...
i can almost feel it.

i pray it stays its course.

shedding this skin.
this ( Read more... )

she reminds me of contentment. of happiness.
she takes me to a place.. it feels like i havent been in ages.
even as everything spins around us.
all i can see are her eyes.

i ask her "why?"
 and this is her response...

Because your skin is so soft it makes me melt inside

Every time I touch you

When I look into your eyes I can see ( Read more... )