YOu may ask me . . .

It's been two weeks since I made her cry.
Do I still feel bad?
DO I still feel responsible?
Do I think I could have prevented those tears?
Do I still dream of those darkened eyes?
DO I still wake up . . .
Saying "I'm so sorry, I'm so sorry."?

Yeah, I do.

I just wanted to say that i'm sorry.
Like it makes a difference.
I wish I could say I did what I could
not to hurt you.
But I was too close to back away.
I was too selfish.
I once asked, "Is it more good than bad?"
I knew the answer before I asked.
I was really asking
if you would stop me
when I didn't.

I have time. I have pain. I guess I should use them both ( Read more... )

I broke another one ( Read more... )

It wasn't one that made me ( Read more... )

Lots to tell. None of it makes any sense though. I think she's mad at me. Hell, I know she's mad at me. I can't fix it now. Don't know if she will wait for me to try. Time will tell . . .

I fell so far to find that you never even jumped.

Ok, Im not right. I can't be without her. Why? Do I think she will leave me? Cheat on me? No. I don't trust anyone because I don't trust myself. I know I am capable of such evil and I cant imagine someone even as pure as her is not. I need to hear her voice. I need to hear "I love you". I need to know that someone else with her heard her ( Read more... )

I hate being crazy. Its scary to actually be this close to powerless. I know the truth, but I can't believe it. Fucked up huh? I don't like this. How can I get away?

I try not to be bitter. It's not my fault that we breathe the same air. Your eyes open when mine close. And when my lids fliter out the dark, sleep aludes me. It makes me sad that you smile when I look away. Sadder that you distance yourself when I pull near. I can't breathe like this. I was happy far away. U convinced me to be close. But ( Read more... )

sometimes I'm afraid to be me ( Read more... )