last night i was really frustrated. that about says it all.

everyone keeps telling me ... so how come i'm still so skeptical? i wonder. (or maybe i don't really wonder at all, maybe i already know that it's all make-believe)

it is all make-believe.

woot woot ( Read more... )

woah last night was crazy. three trays. that about sums it up. well not really. let's just say rowdy boys on tour, strippers, lots of shots. crazy.

bedtime now i think, good sleepies.

one hell of a week. tired. jet lag? hangover? combo? can't keep eyes open, and my left ear is still bothering me.

i remember something in spanish?

it's the concept of being "between"
between jobs
between lovers

regardless of how you say it, the point is that you once had, and are now lacking.

it's the difference between those who have, and those who have not.maybe it was a little more than a year, maybe we all had gone camping, and you and i went for a walk. it had just begun to rain, and ( Read more... )

is it possible for me to be more than disappointed? disappointed isn't strong enough a word.

it has been years.

i hate how when i finally come face to face with him, i have no words, no substance, just fucking small talk and a fake smile.

i'll put them to bed, but they won't sleep, they're just shuffling the sheets, they toss and turn, you can't begin to get it backgood people are fun. my sleeping patterns have been disturbed. thusly, my eating habits have been disturbed. this means i'm super hungry, but i don't want to eat because it's eleven twenty two. wheat thins here i come ( Read more... )

section 109, row 8, seats 1 and 2
it's official.center>

karlissuperhot: what's going on at home?
Lehcarga: not much
Lehcarga: mom is getting a chinese student
karlissuperhot: did she order it already
Lehcarga: yep
Lehcarga: it gets here the 18th or 17th or something
karlissuperhot: where is it staying?
Lehcarga: in your old room
karlissuperhot: incredible
karlissuperhot: that's ( Read more... )

i have made a few important realizations in the last few days/weeks perhaps, the first being that at some point i stopped letting myself imagine or dream because i was so afraid of being disappointed with reality. the second being that i am so absolutely untrue to myself. and because of that, i am untrue to everybody that i know. everybody. but ( Read more... )