I want to be in a band, i want to sing my heart out to the words that are in my head. so that the people that i know can know me more and hear my heart scream off of my sleeve. i fear that i will never get my foot in the door of the music industry, i fear i have missed my chance. so am i destined to have these lyrics in my head and on my heart ( Read more... )

i can't say i've been too bust to update, i havn't, i can't say nothing is worth writing about, it is, i can't say there is nothing or no one in my life that i care about, there is. all i can say is that i havn't felt compeled to update for whatever reasons ( Read more... )

i have all these things that i want to do, and i think i could be good at, but then i just see so many other people who are doing the same thing and are way better at it than i am. i want to get into music, but there are other people who are so much better and i feel like i've missed my chance to get into that scene. all i can do is sing, i can't ( Read more... )

What do you know ( Read more... )

so i have been noticing the lack of enthusiasm in the realms of the livejournal domain. and my mind is at a loss for thoughts as to what should be done about this tragedy. as far as i can see, which isn't very far, into my computer screen is to give you all a charge to post. i great man once said,(my riot leader last year) you can't make people ( Read more... )

i just found out that one of my classes is in the stupid 'temporary' classroom buildings that they ruined a play area for, with trees and little hills and grass that i used to play in last year in front of my dorm. oh well i guess a plus to it is that it is really close to where i live now, oh well i will get used to it. there is alot different ( Read more... )

so i got here(bethel university)yesterday i flew in from london and moved most of my stuff in too. it was a crazy day. today my roomie mike came and moved in and tonight joe vukov moves in. and then the 7th guy moves in sunday. we are going to have an awesome room ( Read more... )

i just really like this line that i wrote

keep your eyes closed and keep ignoring yourself and keep shooting me in the heart and in the head for having my eyes open.

take it or leave it, but in this moment i like it and it speaks something for me.

so here i am in france after being in poland, germany, holland, and now france in the last week. talk about being confused with languages. i can't wait to get home to a place where i can just speak english with everyone. but i was getting pretty good with my polish, enough to get around kinda by myself. well, i'm still confused about what to do ( Read more... )

i was reading through some of my older journal entries, and here are a couple exerpts that i liked. sometimes i wonder where my writing comes from, i don't really remember writing these, i remember feeling what i wrote, but it's cool how i wrote it, i think at least, you can dissagree with me ( Read more... )