I moved to NC with my dad bout 3 months ago, and im doing pretty good. i guess. I miss my friends real bad, 1 in particular. Joe. That boy means the world to me. and i hope he knows that. And i hope he meant it when he promised me that he would come see me in March. he hasnt kept his other promises, bout drinking. Hes been partying alot. but w.e ( Read more... )

Well im completely moved into my apartment now. Its a nice change that i needed and maybe it will help me and joe now that i think about it because im farther away from all the people that made me the amanda i was when we were broken up and im not right around the corner from *name* anymore. I guess this apartment is a drastic change cause my house ( Read more... )

Ive been busy moviong all weekend but not busy enough to think. I think about how i hurt the one that i love and im finally not thinking about it but every once in a while and guess who i see?. *name*. Me and Joe were at the corner looking at cars and lauging and having fun and joe sees this big red truck and i realize its stevens and i look up and ( Read more... )

I want to try to start my modeling career. but i have many people telling me no. I have others that dont even know i want to. Joe doesnt want me to lose weight and wear all the make up making my face break out and have castings and have to leave town. when i wont have to because im still in school they cant make me leave. i guess im just going to ( Read more... )

John has been getting to my head alot lately. I know that i shouldnt let it get to me but its kinda hard with hes yelling *name* out and expecting it to not bother me. He doesnt know how bad it hurts to think about him. I dont have any feelings for him but thinking about him reminds me of that night ( Read more... )

New Journal. so im going to say anything i feel. No holding back. and if i add you that means no holding back when it comes to commenting. i want to know your feeling about what i say. Anything ( Read more... )