Pain Magick.

[empathicdesign]

After the last post I went out with Stacy to visit the Wild Rose and other places. I will write about that in my GirlAbomination journal. It was a good time until the very end when we were walking back to my car and someone pointedly said "Excuse me sir, do you have the time?" I ignored it and kept walking, when he repeated himself and Stacy answered

Comments

[angriest_girl]

Well, I have only seen photos, but I can't see why anyone would see you as a "sir". I am insanely jealous of your fab wig, too.

Do you walk like a guy, maybe? That's usually a giveaway.

[empathicdesign]

Sometimes in bad light my jaw appears to be very masculine or... given that he was just outside the bar, the door man that said "Whoaa..." had been talking about it while I was upstairs and inside and he overheard.

[lafille]

I'm sorry about that! It totally sucks.

I just found out my boyfriend was cheating on me (before he managed to break my heart when he broke up with me) so... now I'm like even more pissed and hurt... so I can totally understand the spells that you've done. So far, I've restrained myself......... it's soooooooooooooooo freakin difficult.

[empathicdesign]

Part of me feels guilty, but the other part of me is unrepentant. I think the greatest concern is that I identify as a healer, and we're not supposed to willfully cause suffering.

[owlsamantha]

Anger isn't a bad thing in and of itself. It's a signal to you that your personal value system has been violated in some way. However, what you do because of your anger can be either bad or good...it all depends on what is actually done.
I'm sorry to hear that you got so mad as to feel the need for such vindication and vengence. It's likely to bite you back at some point you know. That guy was insensitve and possibly loutish no doubt. I can understand being angry with him. I guess I just wish, for both of your sakes, that you could have found a less agressive way to deal with it.
It's a learning process for all of us, this being able to deal with magick and such. Eventually it all evens out I think, it's just that some folks take the rocky path and some folks (like me) take foever to even leave the house with it.

[girlabomination]

The way I see it is that I've already had enough yuck building up that I can get away with some bad stuff. It's kind of like a bank. Who says you have to pay for your sins after you enact them, rather than before? Time is just a bunch of coordinates.