Ha so much of me hates to post this kind of stuff for fear of jinxing what I have going... but this feels right. I'm falling in love. I haven't said it yet to him and I'm proud of myself for that... but I find myself thinking it all the time. It's not like a conscience thing either. He'll say something funny or so like me and I look at him and ( Read more... )

This has really turned into a journal about my break ups. I really don't write on here because I have my myspace... I do like this because no one knows this journal really. Hmmm... well Stefan is out of my life. I was going to write it all down back in July and probably needed to but my work banned lj. LOL. SO i didn't. I went through a ( Read more... )

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Looks like I made a mess again ( Read more... )

I was given the suggestion that I should start writing a journal again. For me it's a lot easier to type and doing it on live journal has its perks. I can do it at work and no one knows me really except for some of you who have been kind enough to stick around for years reading my entries. I started writing on myspace to update my friends and ( Read more... )

Not much going on. Went to the range yesterday and had a blast with my friends Jake and Vince. I didn't really get to shoot... well I wasn't suppose to since I didn't pay but Vince made me shoot his gun. It was pretty smooth. I thought the Glock 23 that I want had a bit too much kick so he suggested I get a 19 instead... longer barrel I guess so ( Read more... )

I'm letting this all be a lesson to me. I came into work determined to have a phone call with Brad and really talk things out. I mean I felt I had a right considering that we really didn't finish our "break-up" conversation... since I had to almost get stabbed at a call. (that's a whole 'nother story). Anyway, I've been really pissy about how I ( Read more... )

I was just about to delete my last entry... but have decided againts it. I've been questioning what I feel a lot. Why should I really? I mean I'm gonna feel, what I'm gonna feel. I'm totally regretting the whole dating someone at work thing. What made me think that I could prevent it from getting weird? It's impossible apparently. I hate ( Read more... )

Well. Brad and I broke up. It really sucks. I'm actually heartbroken but not to a point of being unable to function. That's actually a first for me. I put (and as he pointed out) way to much emotion out there and therefore get hurt too easily. He's right ( Read more... )

*Sigh* Work sure is boring. I've decided that I like my myspace... but livejournal is "a little" more secretive. It's sort of hard to find me. Well ... using my wit I found a friend of mine's journal but I'm special. I dunno. Not much has really been happening other than the fact that I'm PMSing and bitchy. I feel bad. It's like I expect ( Read more... )