As time has passed, I have grown, I have returned, left and returned again. What I seek I still do not know the answer, I do not know the question. It is so many things, but all wrapped together. The ultimate legacy lies somewhere in the future. Now the wind of destiny seems to push me, if I enjoy the guide or not it does not matter, but I have ( Read more... )

There was once a time when family was held close at heart, and the wisdom of the elders was deep, and powerful. There were stories passed by campfire, and life was not cheapened, or exploited. This wasn't just a time, but in different places, some places still exist, but I am not there, and that is not here. I cross by people in my life too often ( Read more... )

I found a girl a little while ago, or rather she had found me. And we spoke of things of meaning, and then we spoke constantly. She was so much like myself, I thought this could not be, but we continued our conversations, and now we can't wait to meet. I am merely from Portland, while she lives momentarily in Kelso, but within about a week or two, ( Read more... )

Changes, more changes, too many changes, good changes, some changes, what changes, these changes. In a few days I will be in CPW's "Stars of the Future" show, which I had been named first in, which just fucking rocks! By Oct 15th I will be moving from where I have been for about a year to a place with an old friend of mine. As well in about two ( Read more... )

Since I had my Rei Ki attunement done a little while back, since I had retraced my steps a little while back, since I have been reborn within myself, I am not the same. Of what ideals, and interests, and personality I contain I still keep, but deep within myself, my spirit, its vastly different now. To put it so, the ashes of my soul have given ( Read more... )

We have all been fooled. My generation, the next generations, we have all been programmed, pushed, and fixed to believe whatever ours masters require us to follow. We are defeated, and torn from our free thoughts, they are turned into merchandised items, and mocked into mere fashion statements. A once powerful movement of flowerchildren, love and ( Read more... )

So I've been appreciating things in life I never quite let myself enjoy so much before. The blinding brightness of the sun watching over me, the embrace of a breeze, my life. A long time ago a psychologist said I had a mild case of Dysthemia, which is mild ongoing depression. I agree, I did, but with reasons for it, now I don't care about those ( Read more... )

I have come so far, and yet so much more to travel, not just within the world but within myself as well. Currently externally life is rather dull beyond the wrestling. I have decided that American Females are not for me, or at least the chance of me finding one that I could see myself with is too few and far between. No, I am thinking beyond the ( Read more... )

Recently I had lost a good friend, and someone I feel that was much like my child, her name is Trouble, and she was one of my ferrets I loved very much. She began losing weight, and then when she lost too much I tried to force feed her, but she still would not eat. I peared into her mouth, and found a large growth underneath her tongue. In further ( Read more... )

I never have good dreams except for dreams that are merely memories of the past that haunt me because I no longer have what I once cherished. The dreams I have are not something I care to remember, and generally I try to forget these dreams. Last night i had a bad dream, and its a dream that tears me up inside. Normally I feel a little bit lonely ( Read more... )