i've been on myspace lately...more to keep me distracted...check it out at http://www.myspace.com/empresse383 ...i think it's pretty cool, anyway.

blah...oh fuck it.

well, i just bombed a med chem exam. hoping interpersonal communications exam this afternoon will go better. praying i make it through this school year. totally freaked out now.

plus lots of shit going through my head anyway. brain overload.

fizzle....

stupid school. no exams this week, but 2 the next. fuckers. screw it. i'm done with class, and when i'm done with this i'm gonna go smoke myself retarded and hang out with my gay husband. i love gay men. i so missed having a gay friend...they're like us (straight chicks) but with a different perspective. seriously, if you want good advice on ( Read more... )

back at school...probably gonna end up spending a bunch of time on the computer due to holes in my schedule so maybe i'll actually update this thing more than once a year. however, it isn't holding my interest right now, so let me leave off with a few words about why people are so frustrating. why is it that the people you want to talk to don't ( Read more... )

Wow, I can't believe how long it's been since I've updated this thing. For a long time, I just felt too crappy to care about things like this. However, in the last month or so, I have turned my life around (with help, mind you.) So, where is our Emily now? Let me fill you in (though I don't know who will read this anyway ( Read more... )

To update my journal I shall say "blah." There, I said it. Go away now.

i wish i felt better. i mean, i feel better, but not as much as i'd hoped. i guess this will take a while. it's hard, but i'm putting my foot down now. no more emily abuse. it may sound harsh or extreme, but i need to do what i need to do to make myself feel better. now is not a time i can put others before myself like usual...it's gotta be ( Read more... )

something happened tonight, and if you really want to know what it is, ask...but it just solidified everything i said in my last entry (well, the last one i wrote anyway...) i'm definitely doing things wrong...and despite the fact that my problems stem from my own self, it's even clearer where the negative influence in my environment is coming ( Read more... )

em.. you'll get there.. it's nice to see that you've come to realization.. i've been so worried about you.. i know i appear testy with you at times, but it's been for your own benefit.. having someone tell you that you need to pick up your life is nothing compared to figuring it out on your own.. so i'm proud of you.. i know it's not easy, ( Read more... )

it seems just yesterday that everything was great for me...what happened? i feel like i've woken up in a bad dream. my life has been spiraling out of control for some time, and i feel like i'm barely hanging on. i don't like who i am right now, i don't like the decisions i've made or the consequences they've led to. i know i have to do ( Read more... )