Random thoughts:
It occurred to me today that I haven't been thinking about the whole truth of cathartic release... merely one half of it.

Yes, when one pours one's very essence into a sheet of paper, it affords them a measure of closure. By recounting the bearings of history, it draws them out of the trapped confines of one's memory and allows them ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
Personal weakness
Fitful sleep

Currently grateful for:
The promise of release
Lingering dreams

Currently pissed off about:
My own self-doubt

Random thoughts:
I feel kind of bad for some of the rants I've made here lately. I always seek solace here without any consideration for what's going on with the people around me, and I find that I ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
Time

Currently grateful for:
Resilience of mind and body

Currently pissed off about:
Intentional ignorance
Denial of wicked fault

Random thoughts:
I've come to a conclusion tonight, in a sort of psychological profile about myself.

1. I feel myself starting to gravitate toward what is essentially a hermit. Hell really is other people.
1a ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
Easy escapes

Currently grateful for:
Fleeting weaknesses

Currently pissed off about:
Solemn (but forgotten) promises

Random thoughts:
I don't know why but I seem to be able to write more easily here. Wow, I just had an urge to tack on "at home" to the end of that, but then I caught myself and left it off. Well regardless of what "here ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
Things a 40 year old would think about

Currently grateful for:
Things a 20 year old ought to think about

Currently pissed off about:
Things no one should have to think about

Random thoughts:
So I spent most of the day proofreading fan fics for a friend of mine. She lives up in Boston and, truth be told, yes they were largely lemon ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
Everything

Currently grateful for:
Everything that once was

Currently pissed off about:
Nothing, actually (for once)

Random thoughts:
Vengaboys - "Boom Boom Boom" currently

So I realize it's 4am and I should be sleeping, but that's only under normal circumstances. I'm in between semesters right now as it is, and I don't have a job or ( Read more... )

"I'm so insignicant I can't even kill myself."
-Miles, Sideways

Currently Listening: Remy Zero - "Save Me"

Currently afraid of:
Sleepwalking

Currently grateful for:
Reliable histories

Currently pissed off about:
Guilt trips

Random thoughts:
So my last submission was in September. Wow.

I guess I shouldn't really be surprised. The time between my last entry and the one before that was 20 days, so I guess it wasn't exactly abrupt. Looking back on everything now, ( Read more... )

Random thoughts:
Holy crap. Ok, so list of stuff that happened... on a WEDNESDAY:

1. Putting vodka and some other Thomas conconction in the water vase thing of the good hookah Candy Cane. Every time you took a hit it felt like you were taking a shot too. Gooood stuff.

2. Booze.

3. Watching everyone make a fool of themselves (just a short list):
a. ( Read more... )

Currently afraid of:
What's in front of me

Currently grateful for:
The blurring haze of time

Currently pissed off about:
Appearances

Random thoughts:
I've lost my inspiration to write recently. I guess that's a good thing, because historically I'm always the most motivated to write whenever there's a lot of drama (usually all in my head).

Anyway, life so ( Read more... )