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well i dont know what to do i want to help my mom out but im stuck in texas i want to move back to minnesota theres alot better jobs but right now im stuck working at walmart like a retard, i can accomplish so much more but im stuck here not going to school, i hate my life right now i still think about killing myself to just end it but i know im my ( Read more... )

well its 3am and i cant sleep, i went out to the car and saw the car inside lights were on so its good i went outside, i guess me being up randomly is a blessing in disguise. well jayson, a guy i knew about 4 years ago was in texas and drove alot of miles out of the way to come visit me, it was fun, i feel bad cause i had no ideas on what to do ( Read more... )

well tonight i went to go hang out with a friend of mine from work, well he likes me more then a friend, we didnt do anything we just watched a movie but i felt guilty but then i came home and found pictures lance sent to his ex so i dont care...

well after me and lance broke up since my last entry things went down and down from there, well i withdrew from my friends, didnt talk to anyone and let myself slip deeper and deeper into depression i started misusing my anxiety drugs just so i could sleep for an hour or so. i didnt care for living, so one day in mid march, i tried to kill myself, ( Read more... )

well life goes on this is the first time ive updated in a long time well i was dating a guy named lance for 2 months well lance use to go out with the girl named wednesday who used to be my friend well last weekend she wrote him and email saying she still loved him and missed him. well what a shocker shes a backstabbing bitch like that ohh well im ( Read more... )

well ive relized i do miss people alot and theres really nothing u can do about it i mean we could sit around and be sad all the time or move aon and remember that you had that friendship with them, i will miss some people more then they will ever know. i hate having a dependency on people it rather sucks i mean i wish i could go threw life and not ( Read more... )

well i havnt updated this in a longtime, greg is no longier at jobcorps and i rarely get to talk to him but its great events when i do hes my best friend its wonderful to hear from him. liz graduated so i no longier get to see her ethier, now theres only like me and 4 other people left from our group of friends. its wierd. well now me and lance are ( Read more... )

well i dont understand someone explain to me the world and why up is always down and down can only be sideways. some days i get so sad and analize the world so much i dont see why there is a single hope or chance that this world is worth me living in. i dont understand why if u do good all you get is negative, if u change...... it dosnt matter ( Read more... )

well i went on leave to go to my dads house tis pretty fun so far spend thanksgiving here, well greg left job corps my job corps life is not worth living now since him and liz left. well note to everyone i did have alot of fun at the party at liz's friends angies house, i just dont let people read this live journal cause im open and honest about ( Read more... )